RACHEL:D

BOOOOOO!

2011-11-20T04:58:00.000-08:00

Well, are you surprised to see a new post here?

Wait, who am i talking too?
Nobirdie is reading, duhhhhh.

But this is good, which means i can pour everything out.
The little things that i've been bottling up since the last time i rant/cried.

Uhm, where do i start?

*blinks eyes trying to recall*

errrrr... cant do this. cant remember.
well, i guess i'll just blog whatever i can remember then.

firstly, i have pink nails on, yesss.
the very first time i did a manicure.
DONT YOU DARE LAUGH. -.-

i'm still getting used to it.
the colour doesnt suit my appearance and character very well.
and that bothers me.

uhhhh, i got two new ringssssss.
me and my obsession with rings.
nobody can stop it. :D

(im finding it hard to type with these nails)

yada yada.

i want my own dslr.
com'on.
pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee?

:D

ewwww.
HAHAHAHAHA.

ok, bye.

till next time.
goodbye, annyeong, adios.

P/S: IM GOING TO SEE CHANGMIN AND YUNHO ON 4 DEC. IM SO FUCKING EGGCITED. ASDGHJKL.

annyeong

2011-08-05T07:33:00.000-07:00

annyeong, i'm back.

i was thinking of a place that i could rant at.
and the first place i thought was here.

yes, i'm still glad that i kept a blog.

well, poly life is...
allow me to use the word, tough.

yes, for me.
sometimes i wonder why am i in the course im in right now.
but it leads me to think, where can i be then?

i dont know.
if i am the one stressing myself out or what.
all i know is that i feel really stressed out.

there are people out there who are happy, tho in the same situation as me.
wait, what choices ive got?

nothing yknow.
or is it me that is stopping myself from being happy.

life now is all about school school school.
i dont say it's all about studies.
but i dont feel as happy as before.

maybe i need to learn how to enjoy life.
well, we only live our life once.
why stress ourselves right?

then i will contradict myself.
thinking bout all the negativity.

idk, my sis looks like she is enjoying jc life.

and here i am, struggling.

wait, struggling?
uhm, maybe another word.
idk which tho.

my heart feel so heavy rn.
my shoulders too.

maybe i should xiang kai yi dian.
things will be okay.

right?

am i right?

and i feel like im faltering.

wait, is it the right word?

" Start to lose strength or momentum: "her smile faltered"; "

okay, enough.

i need some strength.

oh my, how long have it been?

2011-06-20T09:13:00.000-07:00

ohhhhhhmaaaaahgod.

how long have it been since i am here?
(for the longest time)

well, i have been occupied with tumblr and twitter i guess.
and well, poly life is busy y'know!

t's isnt as easy as it seems.
if anybody is gonna tell me that poly is easy, imma gonna slap him/her left, right, up, down and straight.
yes, i am serious.
seeee-ray-ious-ly.

:D

okay, i am being random up there right?
(nods head)

anw, i am listening to Jay Chou's 說了再見 now.
it's totally awesome, really.
i am lovinnnnn it.
:D

well, i guess i havent change much hur?
or did i?
changed without me noticing it.

yep, i think so, y'know.
a lil here and there, i guess.

but i am still me.
:D

LOL, totally random.

so, how are you?
are you doing fine out there?
how's life?
eating good, sleeping good?
still as humorous as usual?
still...

wait, i am not suppose to.
Hah, this is ridiculous.

reminds me of velcro shoes again.

velcroshoesvelcroshoes.

kekeke.

whatever.
i got over it.
but it's still amusing and amazing at the same time when i think back of those times.

hey hey, sorry.
if you're not getting it.
it's a one sided thing.

it's just me.
thus, only i know.

he doesnt.
but, guess what.
i am quite alright talking about it rn.

it's a good thang huh?
yes manszxcv.

okay,
i shall end here.

will come back regularly.
:D

saranghae.

annyeong.

KING OF ANYTHING

2011-04-15T03:42:00.000-07:00

Keep drinking coffee, stare me down across the table
While I look outside
So many things I'd say if only I were able
But I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by

You've got opinions, man
We're all entitled to 'em, but I never asked
So let me thank you for your time, and try not to waste anymore of mine
And get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe, but I'm not drowning
There's no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

You sound so innocent, all full of good intent
Swear you know best
But you expect me to jump up on board with you
And ride off into your delusional sunset

I'm not the one who's lost with no direction
But you'll never see
You're so busy making maps with my name on them in all caps
You got the talking down, just not the listening

And who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

All my life I've tried to make everybody happy
While I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it's my turn to decide

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

Let me hold your crown, babe.

gold ayyyyy!

2011-04-13T02:49:00.000-07:00

alllllllllwight! i'm back, here! hmmm, i've been rotting at home! gaaaaah, bad i know. school is gonna start soon. realllllll soon! uhmmm, i'm a lil scared. cant really put it in words, but... yup, that's it. the kind of gaaaaah-it-is-a-new-environment feeling. a lil eeeeeeeeeeew and ohmahgod. heeeheee. weird huh. i think i'm like my mom. we have really serious moodswings. that i've got nothing to say. and. HAHAHA. CHOIR GOT GOLDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD! YIPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEDOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! SODARNITHAPPYLAAAAAAH! hokay. really thank god and all of your efforts! :D got to go! buhbye!

i'm here to blog, about lovely memories.

2011-04-03T08:11:00.000-07:00

Hello folks, so let's see. this is my 466th post on blogger so far. so far, so good. wait, what's my tumblr's? HAHA, it's 1002 alreadeeeee. awww, i did not neglect here oh. better than some other. who just read other people's blog and left their blog rotting. blog blog, please! can you imagine the disappointment of viewing a blog without new post? awww, feels bad right! AIGUUUUU. my new fave word! :) Yesterday was the last day of being Enfa's brand ambassador. Well, to be honest. i really did enjoy this job. Although here was unhappiness, conflict during the six weeks. Plus point, i've know each and every more and better. What's more? I got to know two new awesome friends! Lovely Marilyn and Kevyn! It was really really awesome to know you guys. Fantastic time spent with you two. Especially with Marilyn! Aww, i'm gonna miss youuu! :'( (I think she got influenced by my super-low laughing point!) Gonna miss the cheeeeeeena accent, right?! And, all the lil things we'd laughed about. Until you fell onto the ground or laughed till your face turned red and cheeks become numbed. Lovely memories, aww. Not forgetting the others whom i've worked with. Namely Esther, Geraldine, Katherine, Darren(aka Hon Kia), WeeYoung, Dominic, Shawn, Leon, Brandon, Marc and ShaoKai. Did i miss out anyone? No rrrright! :) Really awesome time working with you guys. Although, at time, some of you really pisses me off, made my blood boil at the highest point. But there was also times which we laughed at Geraldine blurness, Darren and dominic gayness, Weeyoung epic jokes etc and the list goes on! Never ever gonna forget! Promise! :) (I still remember the times i laughed at the moment Weeyoung says aiguuuu. HAHAHAH. Till now.) Andandand, the one who was with us for the longest time, throughout the 6 weeks! *drum rolls please!* TA-DA, AUNTY WENDY! yesyesyes, she is really an awesome lady. Buy bao for all of us to eat somemore, paid from her own pocket! very nice lady. will reallyyyyyyy miss her! :'( but we left our contacts, will keep in contact de right! and, annabelle and calvin, the couple balloon sculptors! thank you two for the adorable balloons! :D really appreciated! phewwwww, i typed quite alot huh? heee, i'm enjoyinggg! hmmm, school is starting soon huh? 25April, another 25th. gaaaah, HAHAHAH. I've lots of things not done yet. Those that i wanted to do. Awww, a long list to be honest. Anyway, DSLR IS DAMNIT TEMPTINGGGGGGGG! yes, everyone just say, BUY IT! but, you need money(ka-ching), GEDDIT?! i dont have enough! :( :( alrighty, i'll be here often cus i dont have work alreadeeeee. will be looking up sim bby soon for lunch! as promised! :) hokayyyy, gotta go now! buhbye! luvvvvva ttm! xoxo, Rachel.A

Again, before you go!

2011-04-01T09:32:00.000-07:00

DANCE VERSION!

Sorry, i cant help it.
HAHAHAHAH.
Toooooo awesome.
:D

Lovin' TVXQ ttm.
ChangMin<3

Before you go.

2011-04-01T08:47:00.000-07:00

the full song audio

the mv

the full length mv

tell you what.
i'm officially in loveeeee with this song!
awww, nice!
i guess i dont need to explain why i love them so much.
a picture speaks a thousands words.
then, a video speaks a gazillion words.
:D

Tmr is the last day of work!
Yipeedo!
Happy much manszxcv!
:D

Movie alone soon!
And, exercise!
And, sunrise/sunset!
:D

I'm coming, wait for me!:)

Before you go, please know that i loved you.

xoxo,
Rachel

R(ache)l!

2011-03-21T03:08:00.001-07:00

booo.

please tell me there isnt work tmr.
pleaseeeeeeeee.

awww, i know it's not going to happen.
(snaps back to reality)

grrrrr, gaaaaah.

i'm not hating my work.
just that, okay, it can be the people.

ahhhh, i do enjoy the accompany of kids.
yes, i love them!

hope that everything's gonna be okay.
(prays reeeeeeally hard)

back from bath.
sooooo refreshingggg! HAHAHAH.
sampat.

okayyyy, work is tmr.
ren ming bah.

that's all.

tell me about your love story, i'd love to hear.

xoxo,
Rachel

dream(s).

2011-03-20T07:13:00.000-07:00

hello, hello.

loooooooong time no see!
HAHA, missyou missyou!

well, have been resting for the past few days.
and then tuesday will be back to working.
:'(
next location is at century square!
what have i been doing.
uhm, practically nothing la.
bbq, movie, teevee, blogging etc.
i want more movies!~

err, and.
sad to say that, i didnt get to buy show's album!
:'( sad ttm canszxcv.
crestfallen.

i.swear.i.m.gonna.get.it.no.matter.what!

and i think i really think about it alot alot.
until what y'know?
i dreamt about him.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

hilraious much.
but i swear it's a nice dream!
:D
i dont mind having these kind of dream!

whatttttttt! at least better than nightmare right! :)
heehee.

i dream alot hur?
yes, yes.
i wish there is a technology that could capture dreams and keep them in bottles.
when you wish to dream about that dream again, you let out that dream and you can dream about it!
awesome much? :D

terms and conditions apply, of course!
only for nice and awesome dreams!
:D inserts truckloads of smileys!

well, i dream of alot of people too.
my dad, my sis, esther, erika, _____ and ______ etc.
HAHA.
blanks!:)

wellwell.
what now?

scratches head.
ahhhhhh.

i'm completely stuck to the teevee now.cus there's like plentiful of tv prog for me to choose at!
entertainment and movies somemore!:D
wheeeeeeewhoooo!

gahgahgah.
that's all.

will be back, asap.
i hope so.
till next time.

xoxo,
Rachel

you caught my heart already! ^^

2011-03-13T09:12:00.000-07:00

拼什麼

獨一無二

touch my heart

一萬零一夜

more to come!
^^
gonna get the album.
NO.MATTER.WHAT!

2011-03-12T08:31:00.000-08:00

I DONT WANT TO WORK.
:'(

GET ME OUT!

hiccups.

2011-03-08T08:00:00.000-08:00

Dear Blog,

"bring me some maps and compasses, so that i can locate your exact location."
-sunshine

da-dee-dum.
i'm hungry.
i'm tired.
i'm disgusted by a guy, or maybe a group.
i wanna say something.
i'm going to sleep.

goodnight world.

xoxo,
Rachel.

good-de-bye.

2011-03-06T09:52:00.000-08:00

"I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall. We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call,"
- The Fall

com'on.
make yourself clear.
crystal clear please.
i'm bad at guessing.

Am I not waiting?
Waiting am i, not?

Grrr.

check up tmr morn.
i'm still awake.
time check: 1.55am

poly enrolment thingy makes me mad.
hope it would be smooth going.

went home really really tired today.
nearly sprain my neck.
think y'know why.

my head will only lie on your shoulder.

zzzz.
what now?
ahhh.

okay, end of randomness.
good-de-bye.

Run after me.

2011-03-03T07:07:00.000-08:00

"Someday, you should just run away, and see who cares to run after you."

"Perfect guys dont exist, but there's always one guy that is perfect for you."

who will ever run after me, if i run away?
you, you or you?
or maybe, you?
or maybe i will just keep on running, keep on running.
turn back and realsied that there's no one.
tell me why am i not surprised?
i know it best luh dey.

perfect guy, HAHAHAHA.
how funny, very funny.
i'll inform you till i find one.
till next time, kay.

"What are words? If you really don't mean them when you say them.
What are words? If they're only for good times then they don't.
When it's love? Yeah, you say them out loud.
Those words, they never go away.
They live on, even when we're gone."

-What Are Words Chris Medina

Back up your words with actions.
If not they are just words, empty promises.

alrighty, that's all for today.
buhbye!

Luvvs, xoxo.
tell me when, if not i'm gonna wait like a idiot. geddit?

let go, not.

2011-03-01T07:22:00.000-08:00

hello earthlings.
back from work.

hey, playing with children can be tiring too okay!
you go try, and thy shall know!
but meanwhile, it's fun!
and it get to meet cute kids and babies! 8)

hmm, i'm tired.
grrrr.

"i realised i had to let go in order to grab hold of another."

"and i'mdying to know. is it killing you, like it is killing me?" -thestoryofus

buhbye.
read people.

Nightmares.

2011-02-27T08:17:00.001-08:00

well hi there, poop.

uhm, starting work on tues laaah.
hope it would be alright.

hmm, guess what?
i woke up crying this morning.
why? nightmares duh.

it was pretty scary, i would say.
i dreamt that my dad passed away.
geeeeeeeeeez.
among all of the other dreams, i dreamt of that.
(smacks head)

surprsingly, i could remember the dream vivdly.
gaaah, bad huh.

still could remember the epicness of this morning.
i woke up (remembering the dream) and then ran to my parents' room and laid beside my mom.
then i suddenly cried out loud, literally.
my mom was shocked, and asked me what happened.
HAHA, damn epic canszxcv.

then i told her i dreamt of something bad.
after which i ran back to my room and sleep again.
weird siaa.

then later the day, my mom and bro kept probing about my dream.
so i told them, tho i was quite reluctant at first.
they laughed at me siol.
grrrrr.

the rest of the day was spent wisely!
awesome!
we packed the study area with boxes.
now it's all neat and tidy!
:D

"dont wait till you loses somebody then you start to learn to cherish each individual."

alrighty.
that's all.
hey you all, can you bloggggggg?!
ugh, im reading your blogs fyi!

tatas.
luvvvs, xoxo.

showluozhixiang

2011-02-24T02:34:00.000-08:00

作词:姚若龙作曲:徐继宗
专辑:独一无二

人群走了灯光不在场地凌乱
太多情绪显得相爱想听很难
讽刺怀疑总是很酸一路纠缠
冷眼冷语不看不管心却敏感

路灯擦亮午夜车窗像泪光闪闪
想要跟谁温暖的交谈
却只有我和孤单

早上匆匆忙忙出门时
好在有灯忘了关
像谁坚持等了整夜要给我陪伴

我在拼什么
在意什么最多
为了什么又累又寂寞
不怕别人误会了
就怕最在乎的人也不想懂

有些时候我会做梦
盼望回过头你在身后
温柔看我没有不快乐
没有逼我做抉择
懂我拼什么
懂我最宝贝你了

懂你让我多痛

拼什麼 - 羅志祥

awww, i was so touched when i saw this can!
cant helped but teared.
hope you all enjoyed it!
soooo awesome!

p.s i want his album sooo badly! :(

geez.

2011-02-22T09:11:00.000-08:00

awwwww, how long have it been since i had been here?
(counts with fingers)

so manyyyyyyy days alreadyyy!
oops! :p

Haha, anyways.
i was bawling my eyes out just now.
watching the show,(korean one, duh!) cus it was the last episode and they had to bid farewell.
awww, so sad canszxcv.
cried like some sampat in front of the laptop.
alone somemore!
(siasuay sia!)

uhm, gonna start work soon.
working as brand ambassador for Mead Johnsons's milk powder.
Enfagrow, heard before?
Heee, i hope it's gonna be fun!
with kiddddddddddss!
HOHOHO.

uhh, my eyes hurt now.
must be cried too much.
geeeez.
cry over lil stuff sia.

well, that's rachel ang for you!
tears can be like the tap.
ever-flowing and over-flowing.
heeeee.

it's 1.17am now.
good morning there!
want some breaky?
HAHAHA.

alright, i should catch some sleep now.
buhbye!

luvvvvvs!
srangheyo!<3

tranquility.

2011-02-18T03:17:00.001-08:00

你是否愛過　你愛他多過他愛你的人　你還記得嗎
你是否愛過　他有種真命天子般的人　你還記得嗎

相愛以後終於分手　分手以後又想重來

如果能重來　誠實的去對待
彼此都沒疑猜　就沒有理由分開
如果能重來　回憶當作塵埃
心不曾被傷害　就能無瑕疵地愛
但是重來　卻不能保證愛的成功或失敗
要重來多少次後才會明白

你是否愛過　讓你日夜忘不了的人　你還記得嗎
我們曾愛過　不同種類不同面孔的人　你記得哪個他

相愛以後終於分手　分手以後又想重來

如果能重來　誠實的去對待
彼此都沒疑猜　就沒有理由分開
如果能重來　回憶當作塵埃
心不曾被傷害　就能無瑕疵地愛
但是重來　卻不能保證愛的成功或失敗
要重來多少次後才會明白

要重來多少次後才會明白
要重來多少次後才會明白

重來黃小琥

"Life doesn’t give you the people you want, it gives you the people you need: to love you, to hate you, to make you, to break you and to make you the person you were meant to be."

-Tumblr

I WANT.

2011-02-16T06:54:00.000-08:00

DSLR.
LOMO.
HOGLA.
POLAROID.

HAHA.
just joking.
the first one will do.
:D

不只是朋友

2011-02-12T07:56:00.000-08:00

你身边的女人总是美丽
你追逐的爱情总是游戏
在你的眼里
我是你可以对饮言欢的朋友
你从不吝啬催促我分享你的快乐

你开心的时候总是挥霍
你失意的片刻总是沉默
在你的眼里
我是你可以依靠倾吐的朋友
你从不忘记提醒我分担你的寂寞

你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点温柔的娇纵

你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点自私的占有

想做你不变的恋人
想做你一世的牵挂
想做你不只是朋友

p.s anyways, your post ruined my mood too, fyi.

and the feeling is mutal

2011-02-11T04:34:00.000-08:00

okay, here i am.
a lil grouchy.

well, did i mention that the audition for sylvia was at srjc?
oh maybe i didnt huh.
my bad. now you know! :)

and why did i ask you if you wanted to accompany go with her?
did i mention that it was just to pass the bag to you since you're just a few blocks away?
and, it was my mom that suggested to me that to ask you to go with me to give sylvia physical support cus she is going audition alone?
well, maybe i didnt.
my bad. but now you know!

i just had to type those out.
im glad you're asking.
cause there'll always be answers.
and there you are.
if you think im trying to give excuses, i have nothing to say.

uhm, i dont know if it's alright to say this.
but, sometimes.
you really cant expect alot from me.
as you know from all these years, im not always available.
not available not meaning im doing something else.
not available means i cant get out cus i dont have permission from my mom.
no permission, no nothing.
and, honestly speaking.
i hate to get permissions.

and, when you say im not there.
i dont agree.
i dont have to be there physically right.
im mentally with you.
not enough, i cant do much then.

i dont ask you for company cus i know you will be there.
so, if this is the case.
you always ask me. that means I always be able to make it for you?
no right, i always say idk, idk, idk.
which half of the time means cannot.

"when you are giving, dont expect to get back something."

and, i realised true friends are hard to be huh?
so we're just friends.
alright.

whoa, this is tiring.
i need someone to rant to.

bye.

pssssssssssssssssst

2011-02-09T07:22:00.000-08:00

oh no, find me at tumblr instead.

www.wordsinthebox.tumblr.com

im there. hee.
i'll be still here tho!

see ya.

sarangheyo.
annyong.

sharp knife of a short life.

2011-02-07T20:15:00.001-08:00

well well, im back.
after all that tumblr got me addicted.
hee, i might never come back here.
(readers go "nooooooo!" wait, is there ~~readers~~ a reader in the first place?)

HAHA.
alright alright, well, very well.

i realised i've been real, 1)contradicting 2)procrastinating 3)living in self-denial.
well, you could choose one of those and you'll get it correct.

i know that my interest is there.
i know im interested, and i swore to myself that imma gonna do well.

but what is wrong with me?
sometimes, when i just sits there and stone.
or when im alone, or even i shut my eyes before bed.
some weird questions just keeps on troubling me.
it just keeps on making me doubt myself.

and i really do, doubting, uncertainty, wavering.
how stewpit right?

and guess what? after all the doubting.
i would start to think if my choice is wise.
starting to doubt if i made the correct decision.
starting to wonder is it right to go with what i'd like to do.

and sometimes, i'll end up negative.
then i'll shut me eyes, shake my head and tries to think of something else.

sometimes it fails, and
i'll be super bothered the entire day.
one day you see me super moody, those questions could have looked me up earlier on.

during cny, all the relatives asked.
"where are you two going?"
"i'm going poly, sylvia going jc." i replied.
"oh, so you three years ah? then she two years lah."
"uhm, yah."
"you score higher ah? why go poly, never go jc with meimei?"
"err, same score. im more interested in mass comm.", a lil irritated already. tho i know they were just asking.
"ohhhh, okay lah. study hard uh!"
"orh, okay. i'll."

and that will leave me wondering for the longest time.
FTLT.

for what? you might be thinking.
anything, everything, something and maybe nothing.
really, i'm serious here.

just like what mr goh found out after he probed and questioned me during a camp.
the conclusion was that,
i really did matter how people perceive me.
how they look and think of me.

well, you might say it doesnt matter a bit.
but hell no to me.
maybe i'll look alright outside, smile and oh okay.
i'm alright.

but deep inside, i'll start thinking.
think of what, too long to list.

weird girl huh?
i think so too.
a wierd, eccentric seventeen year old here.
welcome to my planet, hope you'll survive.
enjoy your stay, sarangheyo.

po-peeep-po-peep.

sometimes i really need a perosn to talk to.
a person who really listens.
i dont need him/her to give me any suggestions.
i dont need him/her to give me advices.

i just need someone, who will sit beside me.
and, lends me his/her listening ear.
nodding and smiling, giving me assurances.
that's all i really need.

and, i just dont have one.

maybe i'm too picky, am i?

heehee.
well, it's a pretty long post here huh?

yupyup.
you've just read finished it.
LOOL.

"i've lost the only love worth fighting for."

did i, have i, should i, could i, would i?
will i?

teehee-szxc.
that's all for now.

baiszxcv.
tatas, xoxoxo.

My Fave Songs.

2011-02-07T06:37:00.000-08:00

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh oh oh

Lord make me a rainbow
I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you
when she stands under my colors oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be no
ain't even grey but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life well
I've had just enough time

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life well
I've had just enough time

And I'll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I've never fell in love with no one
But it sure felt nice when I held you in the sun
And you, you toke my hand said you'll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life well
I've had just enough time

A penny for my thoughts
oh no I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin?
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin...

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh

The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need 'em oh

The sharp knife of a short life

Don't know what to do anymore
I've lost the only love worth fighting for
And I'll drown in my tears, storming sea
And that would show you, that would make you hurt like me

All the same I don't want mudslinging games
It's just a shame to let you walk away

Is there a chance, a fragment of light
At the end of the tunnel, a reason to fight?
Is there a chance you may change your mind
Or are we ashes and wine?

Don't know if our fate's already sealed
This days are spinning circus on a wheel
And I'm ill with the thought of your kiss
Coffee laced intoxicating on her lips

Shut it out, I've got no claim on you now
Not allowed to wear your freedom down, no

Is there a chance, a fragment of light
At the end of the tunnel, a reason to fight?
Is there a chance you may change your mind
Or are we ashes and wine?

And I'll tear myself away
So if it?s that is what you need, there is nothing left to say but

Is there a chance, a fragment of light
At the end of the tunnel, a reason to fight?
Is there a chance you may change your mind
Or are we ashes and wine?

The day's still ashes and wine
Or are we ashes?

DSLR.DSLR.DSLR.DSLR.DSLR.

2011-01-29T03:25:00.000-08:00

i want a DSLR, badly.

awww. i want one!

aloha.

2011-01-28T04:51:00.000-08:00

annyeong. bonjour. ciao.

i'm here, again.
with a runny nose. :'(

(scratches ear)

uhm, well.
what should i post about?

ahh, went for shopping spree yesterday.
bought cny clothes.

bleahs. bought lostsa other stuff.

ahh, the flu is killing me.

well, birthday was good, with my babies.
heh.

got that book.
:D

but seemed to cause conflict between two.
my bad.

no wish from you, well.
disappointed?

no, and why?
i expected it.

:D

good prediction this time yeah?
shoudezneh.

hah.
jiutomateh.
idk what i'm blogging bout.

i'm hungry.
stomach is growling!

bye!

goma wuh yo.
annyong.

其实爱你的心早已濒临疯狂,连我自己也无法抵抗

2011-01-24T03:31:00.000-08:00

爱你却从不讲幸福的致命伤
从此我只能够在部落格上
路过你快乐悲伤

你说你想飞翔所以我不阻挡
希望你能够在他的肩膀上
找到那爱的信仰

我承认有些话当时没老实讲
那么坏人就让我来当
我了解有些话现在没老实讲
明天我将失去了胆量
当你成为别人的新娘

我承认有些话当时若老实讲
现在就不会两败俱伤
其实爱你的心早已濒临疯狂
连我自己也无法抵抗
再也还原不了的时光

whichever way the wind blows

2011-01-24T02:30:00.000-08:00

gahgahgah.
i'm here, again.

well, i think you just landed on a deserted blog.
and, aloha.
thy blogger welcomes you!

uhm, what did i do today?
ah, well.
i went for lunch with mr goh, erika and sylvia @LJS
actually is go school do the relief school thingy and pass mr goh our ties laaah.
heh.

then, went to roam around hg mall.
HAHA, enjoy the aircon.
(did y'all feel that it's superrrrr hot today?!)
erika met sagar, whoa, talk to him can vomit blood.
just dont understand.

HAHAHAH.
went to popular, found a cheap, simple plannerrrrr!
wheeeeee, like finally!
just a simple, black covered planner.

then went to library.
aww, i love that place nowadays.
a place you find good books.
whoooo!

borrowed 4 chinese book.
aww, one with short stories.
what to say? i love 'em!

a lil weird huh?
normal teenagers wont read chinese storybook/novels.
that's why im special!
:D

then homed!
read a lil of the short stories.

ta-da.
i'm here!

aww, i saw the show luo's book just now!
i wanna buyyyyyyy! :O

anyways, tmr is gonna be girls outing again!
well, celebration for our birthday bah.
iceskating+lunch tmr!
and maybe k-box and neoprint!
HAHAHA!

and, im looking forward!
:D

and, why am i expecting a wish from you, when i know i wont get it?

that's all.
is anyone reading?
(shake heads)

alright, i shall be optimistic!
there.is.someone.reading.and.that.is.you!

byebye.
love you ttm!
(im serious)

what am i fighting for?

2011-01-23T07:05:00.000-08:00

我在拼什麽在意什麽最多

人群走了灯光不在场地淩乱
太多情绪显得相爱想听很难

讽刺怀疑总是很酸一路纠缠
冷眼冷语不看不管心却敏感

路灯擦亮午夜车窗
像泪光闪闪

想要跟谁温暖的交谈
却只有我和孤单

早上匆匆忙忙出门时
好在有灯忘了关
想谁牵谁等了整夜
要给我陪伴

我在拼什么
在意什么最多

为了什么又累又寂寞
不怕别人误会了
最怕最在乎的人也不想懂

有些时候我会做梦
盼望回过头你在身后
温柔看我
没有不快乐
没有逼我做抉择

懂我拼什么
懂我最宝贝你了

懂你让我多痛

罗志祥拼什麼

what am i fighting for?

crestfallen

2011-01-23T03:47:00.000-08:00

ahhhhhh-lowwwwww-haaaaaaa.

i'm mad.
well, this is a mad world after all.

uhm, i felt a lil sad on my way back home.
wait, just a lil?
maybe not, i almost cried.

after listening all the songs.
i was, crestfallen.

right, the perfect word.

hmm, was feeling really down.
i dont know why too.

"i gotta let go, i gotta let you go."

if letting go was so easy, there wouldnt be so many broken-hearted man.

well,
i realised i like to say "well" alot.
Heh. Lol.

Imma gonna paint on my teeny weeny nails again.
and i hope my mom wont laugh at me again.

fyi, if you didnt know.
i have a small hand, a really small one for my build.

small hand, short fingers, teenyweeny nails.
and, i get laughed.
sheesh, but i'm alright with it.
used to it already.

lalala, i wanna watch sunriseeeee.
ahhhh, i yearn for it ftlt.
and, i realised i can only go by taxi or something.
cus the earliest bus doesnt get me there before the sunrise.
gaah. :/

or should i catch sunset?
maybeeeee...

and, and.
i wanna watch movie, alone.
yes, alone!

is there any always-up-to-date blog?
ahhh.
i cant find any!

buhbye.
toots!

always lovin'

so far so, alright.

2011-01-22T06:42:00.000-08:00

okay, hello there.

i'm backkkkk.

back from:
lazing at home watching korean dramas and entertainment shows,
reading chinese novels,
getting contacts,
1&2diligence lil' class outing.

HAHA.
yes, alot.
but i'm not going to blog about all.
if not, im gonna go crazy.

oh, contacts.
i've got it!
heh, well.

i've got that pair of plastic onto my pupil in less than 5mins.
well, the optician was shocked.
when i stretched my lids(upper and lower) open, she was like.
"whoa, ni de yan jing hen da, hen hao!"
HAHA.
so, tada, got it in.

uhm, outing.
right. well, i like and dislike it.
like cus we got together, talked about the past, the silly things we did.
dislike cus... uhm, yeah.

well, you bite your nails too.
i'm fascinated! :O

okay, enough.

uh, i'm happy for you.
(yes, you!)
i know you could walk out of it.
well, all the best to you!

those who should understand, will.
those who never, wont.

well, that's it.

buhbye!

thumbs down to decision making.

2011-01-16T05:43:00.000-08:00

Where is love?
Does it fall from skies above?
Is it underneath the willow tree
That I've been dreaming of?

Where is she?
Who I close my eyes to see?
Will I ever know the sweet "hello"
That's only meant for me?

Who can say where she may hide?
Must I travel far and wide?
'Til I am beside the someone who
I can mean something to ...
Where...?
Where is love?

- Oliver

Nice song hur.
I remembered this song recently, suddenly.
I got to know this song when i was in choir.
we were supposed to learn this song, i think.

captivated by the lyrics.
very nice. simple and yet, beautiful.

boo, i've just been through another round of decision making.
and, it felt like a war.

sheesh, i really dont like.

RACHEL ANG ZI QING FACT #(?)
She hate making decision.

wheee, i wanna go back to the fact thing.
HAHAHAH.

go, go away. aye aye aye.
go, go away. aye aye aye.

i dont care.

buhbye.

final decision

2011-01-13T16:44:00.000-08:00

and if you're reading this.

i've made up my mind.
i've come to a conclusion.
i've made my decision.

submitted.

it's not a good morning.
i flet like i've just been through a war.
when there is only me, alone, in my house.

awesome much.
but yeah, i did it.

bye.
thanks to all who helped.

luvvvvs ttm.

results.

2011-01-10T07:16:00.000-08:00

boohoo.

there you go, i'm feeling fine.
alright.

L1R4: 9
L1R5: 14

a jump of 5 blardee points idk why.

but i think the nine points deducted the cca points already.
L1R5 havent yet, so it's 12.

well, still a big number.

9 is a nice number, can get me into the poly course i want.
hmm.
14 doesnt land me anywhere.
only after deducting this and that, which i dont really fancy the idea.

so well, rachel how?

well, she doesnt know.
she is confused.

is the results good or bad?
sighs.

but congrats for those who did really well.
you've dont us proud!

but those who didnt fare well doesnt matter too.
this is just one of the races you must complete, it doesnt mean you come in at the last few places, you wont succeed in life.

well, decision making time.
the time i hate the most.

bye.

faith.

2011-01-09T04:59:00.001-08:00

Keep the faith, the faith.

I'm holding the last bit of my hope.
and hope that god will do the rest for me.

i'm keeping the faith.

‎"Faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see"
- From Hebrews 11:1

From Mr Goh.

Well, all the best to y'all out there.
and you, sitting in front of the computer.
and you, using your iphone/itouch.

good luck to me too.

may the force be with us.

back.

2011-01-07T04:20:00.000-08:00

hello hello.
i'm back.

tired to the max.
slept at 3plus, woke up at 5plus.
2 hours of sleep after a whole day of work.

god bless manszxcv.

sit there also will fall asleep.

camp was enjoyable.
not really very taxing.
(phew)

thanks to PC team!
wheeeeeeeeee!

ber-nice(bernice), machickie(vanessa)!
new names!
AHAHAHA!

bye, i'm tired.

edge.

2011-01-04T05:13:00.000-08:00

well, nothing seems to be going on smoothly.

no, not everything.
just, that thing.
well, friendship.

i know apologising any further wont please you.
i know explaining any further wont make you understand.

how about this.
you just try thinking. just try.
how difficult is it for us, to juggle between: our responsibility and our best friend.
at the same time, without hurting any one of them.

it's just that this time, we hurt you.
well, maybe, not just this time.
countless other times we might have did it to you, unknowingly.

but, do you think we feel good, knowing that you dont feel good?
answer is, we dont feel good at all.

we know that you feel left out, after all we three are all involved in camp.
and you're the only one not, leaving you behind is bad enough already.

and, adding on, with our super bad timings.
and only expecting you to accommodate.

i know it's ridiculous.

but, how is it inside of us, to send such a message to you, our dearest friend.
to keep telling you the changes, to ask you to change the timings for us.

yup, i tell you we dont feel good.
you tell us sorry doesnt work, then what?

you tell us you dont need friends like us.
you tell us sorry no cure.
you tell us all these are shit.
you tell us, you wont understand, you never will.

and, what are we suppose to do, when you say all these?
when, sorry and apologising is the only thing we can do.

you tell us you rather not have us.
how hurtful is it to see you type out these words?
i know it hurts you too, and here, we're hurting too.
and deep down inside, i really hope you dont mean what you type.
cus, we dont want to lose you.
or, i dont want to lose you.

it makes me feel how a failure i am being your friend.
making you being able to say such words so easily.

i know you're disappointed.
but we're trying our best already.
and we're doing the best we can do to juggle between both.

it's unfair to you.
but, think about it.
how fair is this, to us?
very fair?

some things i chose not to say.
cus, i know through messages, msn.
it might convey the wrong tone and message.

and, i cant bring myself to say it in front of any one of you.

the invisible gap is there already, i was hope that it would stay unseen.
but, now. that you have tried to clear your doubts by saying all out.
it make it obvious, the gap.
i'm not saying that it's your fault.

your personality, i know.
straightforward, you dont like to keep things inside you.

but, i have to let you know.
sometimes, it can be quite hurtful.
or, it hurts.

each time you question me, it puts our relationship to the test.
i've been trying to pass every one of them.
i've been trying very hard.
i passed the last few.
this one, i dont hope to fail.

i hate to see this happening.
that our friendship is at the edge of falling apart.
just because of small lil things.
like miscommunication and misunderstandings.

this is not best friends are for.

now that, i dont know what to do.
to salvage this situation.

it really hurts to hear you say those words.
is that the past few years of friendship go down the drain just because of this.

after this, there will be a gap between us.
but, i know.
we can overcome.
but how? when?

and, you've been questioning all these while.
why not try to answer some of them?
and know how hard is it for us to give you a satisfying answer.
when we want to, but we cannot.

You are someone that i dont want to live without, but at this point of time, i dont know what to do. But you've gotta know, you're always my baby.
Always and forever.

my definition of friends, i tell you.
erika, esther and sylvia.

i rather give up all my happiness just to have you three with me.

speak now.

2011-01-03T06:16:00.001-08:00

well, here i am.

with a bad mood.
bad? define bad.

or maybe not bad, just a lil not that good.

i hate it when friendship needs to be talked about.
i really hate it. and the aftermath that comes with it.

you tell me everything you are not really happy about.
well, okay.
i accept them, not that i agree with everything.
is that, that i understand.
some of them are my fault, but not ALL of them.
i have my flaws, i have my weakness.
i have some things that i'm not good at conveying.
but, i hoped.
hoping that on the other side, you would understand.
or at least, forgive me.

understand and forgive everything that i aint good at conveying.
understand and forgive everything that my flaws and weakness caused.

well, i'm not a perfect person.

i tried to be everything a best friend could be,
i tried to be everything a best friend could do.

well, what i can say is that i tried my best.

i'm not angry a least bit.
i'm just... i dont know.

more contact, more friction.

we meet everyday, talk everyday.
you know me more and more each day.
my flaws, including.

sometimes, my actions.
i cant explain, so i cant be bothered to explain.
cause, i know it will be more complicated if i say more.
cause, i assumed that you would understand.
or even try just to forget or something.

you might be thinking.
"you expect me to forget, forgive, understand you. what about you?"

well, i tried my best.
maybe you didnt know.
you went wayyyyyyyy past my limits.
maybe you didnt know.
but it did stretched alot for you.
never in my life i did so much for a friend.
you're the first.

"am i suppose to understand, forgive, forget everything that what you did and i dont like?"

well, no.
but, i hope you at least try.
maybe you did, i dont know.
but if that's still it after you try, i cant do anything.

i dont expect anything back from any friend.
cause that's what friends are for.
be there when they need you the most.

communications.
well, maybe you didnt know.
i'm really bad at that part.
i'm pretty sure you realised.
i cant really even communicate with my mom.
sometimes even with sylvia.

i know i've been saying alot of "i dont know"
cause, i really dont know.
i've been escaping from alot of things.

well, if that still doesnt answer the questions in your mind.
ask me then. dont keep it inside.

although, honestly.
i hate receiving this kind of messages.

questioning me, myself.
i tremble everytime i read one.

but, if it's needed.
i'll do it, most willingly.

that's all.

and if this is needed.
i'm sorry, my dear.

2011-01-02T06:16:00.000-08:00

well, well.
HAPPY NEW YEAR, EARTHLINGS!

heh, soon, soo
i can't-2pm
it's stuck in my head!

oh myyyyy.

well, any new year resoultions?
have, have! (waves hand frantically)
but not now, not now.

sheesh.
2010 is over, just like that.

what have you done?
wait, what have i done?

hmm.
a whole load of crap.
heh. (nods head)

i have a sexy voice now.
damn sexy.
HAHAHAHA!

i'm coughing for the longest time.
cant blame me for that.

but i still cant get away from choco!
awww, it's sooo difficult!
(smacks head)

sighs.
results soon!

and i'm scared.
like seriously.

thump, thump, thump.
my heart beats super duper fast everytime i start thinking of this topic.

jc? hmm. idk if i can go into any.
poly? prolly. but wait. which poly, which course?

ahhh, see.
how brain-wrecking?
veryyyyyy.
:(

boo-hoo.
i dont like this feeling at all.

who says you cant be alone and happy?

well, i'm.
i'm contented with loneliness.

teehee.
buhbye earth.
and, hey you here!
luvvvvvs!

Happy New Year!

2010-12-31T02:48:00.001-08:00

wheee, i'm not working anymoreeeeee!

like so darnnn happy!
:D :D :D

(jumps up and down and waves hand in air)

HAHAHA!
i'm going dinner with babies later on.

hee.
ka-ching is comin' on the wayyy!

buhbye!
with truckloads of love!

2010 passed just like that.
what have you done?

2010-12-27T06:28:00.001-08:00

2010-12-23T08:01:00.001-08:00

whee.
new blog link.

now nobody knows.

hooray.

bye.
i'm tired.

下一站，幸福。

2010-12-22T09:41:00.000-08:00

有些人的人生，是直达车。
有些人却是慢车，中间总要经过许多站，经历许多人。　　　
有人总是下错站，坐过头，不是错失了窗外风景，就是错过了身旁的人。　　
没有人知道，能陪自己坐到终点站的人，究竟会是谁。　　
相爱的人，真的就能一路到达人生的终点站吗？

丁当 - 我爱他

他的轻狂留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

you arsehole.

2010-12-22T09:20:00.000-08:00

hello hello baby.

HAHA.
uhm, well.

i worked for 15 hours today.
8am to 11pm.

and i'm right here, awake.
i'm not feeling tired.

but my legs are definitely feeling sore.
ugh.

kena scolded by the chef today again.
wairen kena too.
:(
mad one, that chef.

uhh, today was generally alright la.
ate cake during closing, drank iced tea too.
sinful :(

oh oh, after listening to sylvia talking about the camp stuff, my blood totally boiled.

i mean, they thought it was so easy being aye leader?
i dont think i'm experienced enough to preach anything about leadership.
i mean, you thought being a friend and a mentor at the same time was so easy?
having to juggle with your feelings, your thoughts, your emotions.
what about us?
we are sandwiched between you and teachers.

i mean, use your butt and think also know right.
it's not that easy.
dont think about just yourself.
your emotions, your thoughts, your disadvantage, what did you not benefit from.

stop being self-centred please.
dont abuse your rights.

totally pissed me off.
you effing made pearlyn and zhiyu cried?
you're gonna get it from me,
you arsehole.
you better watch out.

now you know me better?
i'm a crude lady.

bear that in your mind.
i say what i want, i dont keep things.
i'm straightforward.

if you cant accept, sorry.
i dont need you.
go away, thanks.

well, i'm fine here.
just a lil upset about how this is happening.

and, i dont think my mind will change.
dont waste your time.

i need a break.
i need a breather.
i need your shoulder.

NOTICE
Rachel Ang is looking for a shoulder for rent.
Anyone? You will be greatly appreciated.
:D

byebye.
with loads of love,
xoxo,
Rachel.

loathesome.

2010-12-21T01:46:00.000-08:00

"If someone cannot accept for who you are, they are not worthy to be kept close to your heart."
- Adrian Goh

i guess many of you out there agree with this quote huh?
9 people to be exact.
well, that came from mr. goh.

the sentence that left me the deepest impression.
that set me thinking for the longest time.

"i kept you close to my heart, but, i dont know if you're worthy."

well, work was usual.
da-dee-dum.

i'm laughing alone now.
at the teevee.

HAHAHA.
watching 100% entertainment la.

it definately made me happy.
heee.

i wanna eat choco.
i've been eating it alot lately.

sinful. :O

what i want to buy after getting pay+bursary+eagles:
-wallet
-itouch
-contacts
-watch
-bag
-braces!

i dont think i have enough money tho.
HAHA.
okay, that's all.

buhbye you!
love you loads!

i realised.

2010-12-20T06:41:00.000-08:00

whoa, whoa.
it's 10.41pm now.
and i'm not sleeping.

whee.
just came back from camp.

kinda talked alot.
different from usual.

talked to mr goh and justina.
a heart to heart one.
was walking with mr goh at nightwalk, ended up sitting in the sofa in g.o.
talking about myself.

wow huh?
the way he probe, uhm.
lemme found out alot about myself.
maybe i should do this with him often.
conclusion we had after our conversation
that is: i really care about how people perceive me. how people look at me.

a really sensitive person i am.
i dont open up to people easily.

uhm, i can talk to people i aint close with about my deepest thoughts.
whilst i cant talk to my closest friends about how i think.

how weird?
very.

well, that's me, rachel ang.

talked to justina too.
well, she cried when i talked to her.
maybe she had the same sentiments.
this girl is as sensitive as me.
hee.
i hope she grow as a leader.
and be strong, i know she can do it.

well, you saw how i reacted.

i (dont) like means i (dont) like.
i like, i have my reasons.
i dont like, i have my excuses.

i dont know why.
you dont know me well.
i dont want to spend those kind of time.
i mean, it's pointless.
for your own sake, not for mine.
dont get tire out.

maybe this sounds bad.
but.
i'm using the last resort already.
dont make me do the extreme.

maybe by saying this, i hope you will change your mind.

bye earth,
with truckloads of love.

darling

2010-12-18T07:24:00.000-08:00

oh shucks,
i saw you in mohawk.

like out of nowhere.
suddenly, unexpectedly.

well, this is it.

what can i do?

ugh, pissed by one woman today.
she effing shouted at me in front of everybody.
arsehole.
sucha bitch.

bye.

what's inside my mind?

2010-12-16T04:12:00.000-08:00

backwards, pause, play, stop, forward.
buy me these.

find the key to the door of my heart.

i want to make a wish, but i dont see a shooting star.

how do i get there? do you have a map?

with credits to thappiness.tumblr.com and where-the-heart-is.tumblr.com

Love will find you.

2010-12-16T03:40:00.000-08:00

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,

What about now?

Hello, hello.
i swear i hate bidding goodbyes.
especially in an extreme way.
yes, i mean when people passes away.

i just attended my relative's wake this morning after the meeting in school.
wasnt feeling much before i went there.

but, i'm a super emotional person laah.
so you could imagine what i did.

halfway through the rituals, i suddenly thought of my grandma.
i thought of how i lost her.
her smile, her laughter, the way she eats.
it's like flashbacks, in my mind.
why didnt i appreciate her presence when she is still around?
why didnt i make an effort to visit her?
why am i so selfish to just forget about her?

why?

people tend to chersih after they have lose their things.

totally agree.

i'm like soooo missing her.
grandma, can you hear me?

well, i'll be forever missing you.
you will be in my heart, in the deepest corner.

watched narnia today, after the wake.
totally awesome.
i looooove Aslan.
:D :D :D
prince caspian is handsome too!
heee.

i mean, what do you call a girl who cries even watching narnia?

idk, you give me the answer.
whatever la, i was touched.

or, put it this way.
i'm touched easily.
emotional, to be simple.

awww, simply love to go for movie dates.
yoo-hoo! anyone?
:D

i'm yearning for movies for the longest time.
:(

work tmrrrrrrr...
sians.

christmas is coming!
jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way!

buhbye, love.
sarangheyo.

do i look as if i know? :O

2010-12-15T04:38:00.000-08:00

well, three weeks of working already.
hmm, pretty fast tho.

i'm like adapting to it already.
although sometimes i still get grumpy on the way to work.
drag my feet to work, make mistakes.
but, well.
it goes on.

legs doesnt hurt that much now. (still hurts tho)
body isnt aching that much now. (still aching tho)
scolding aint that much now. (still got scolded)

but things improved la.

met weird customers.
like, HAZELNUTTE.
(esther ong if you're reading this you will know)
that blardy impatient and rude woman.

and our lovely cute customers that just walk off after they had their fill.
and when we run up to them, they go " oh, it slipped my mind!"
well, we smiled at them, very politely.

hmm, politic too.
whoa, for that i've a long story to tell.

i realised you have been missing for a while.
where have you been?
somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.
birds fly over the rainbow, why and oh why cant i?

buhbye earth.
sayonara.

oh, please.

2010-12-10T03:27:00.000-08:00

i dont like people disrupting my routine.
dont you get it?

understand please.
my reaction is normal.

i'm tired.

find the key to my heart.

2010-12-10T02:14:00.000-08:00

你说的话在我心中生了根.
爱得很深所以心会疼.
记忆在我的心中翻滚.
是不是每一个人, 都像我一样笨?

只怕再问对彼此都太残忍.
我能感觉另外一个人.
我等, 等笑容换成泪痕.
爱在崩溃的时候比较真.

太多疑问, 知道答案又如何?
原来容忍不需要天份.
只要爱错一个人.

心痛比快乐更真实.
爱为何这样的讽刺?
我忘了这是第几次, 一见你就无法坚持.

孤独比拥抱更真实.
爱让人失去了理智.
会不会是我太自私?
拒绝更寂寞的日子.

放不开也看不见未来.
难道这种不完美, 才是爱情真实的样子?

-真实

i really love being alone.
it feels awesome.
lonely, no.

peacefulness.
time spent alone with myself.
:D

a lil mad, i know.
but, yeah.

blahblahblah.
that's all.
bye.

find the key to my heart, it's missing.

i n 55!w !

2010-12-08T05:20:00.000-08:00

with credits to thappiness.tumblr.com

well,absolutely true.

How are you going to hold on to something that was never there to begin with?

there was nothing in the beginning, nothing at the start.
what is there to hold on, when i have nothing to begin with?
nothing, nothing to hold on to.

well, what i can say.
it's just mere imagination.
or well, a lil more than that.

i really dont know.
you can read my mind?
tell me then, i will listen to you.
that's provided if you really know.

which i really doubt so.
so well. let it be then.
i give up too.

too pessimistic here?
aww, well. think again.
this is who i really am.
oh, oh, oh.

pull through it,
rant it out.

oh well.

mind your own business.

i'm just saying, well.

something, do something please.

eventually, nothing is done.

HAHA.

this is funny.

laugh please.

I just found this interesting.

well, it might take some time for you to read this.

but, absolutely true.

well, reality?

uh huh.

"Girls are much more than what they seem. They’re more than just the makeup, the clothes, the shoes, the bags, the sunglasses, the outside. They’re more than just whiny bitches. We’re so much more. Too bad some boys can’t understand. A girl’s life is a bitch itself. On a daily basis we deal with bitches, backstabbers, lies, boyfriends, crushes, exes, appearance, insecurity, bullying and so much more. Everyday we wake up, we have to shower, fix our hair. Then, we have to get dressed. We spend hours in front of our mirror for you making sure we look good. While doing all this, there’s so much to consider. Especially gossipers and guys. If something’s too short, they’ll call us a whore. If something’s too long, they’ll call us ugly. We go through buckets full of ice cream because we’ve had way too many broken hearts. We cry because bitches wanna hate and boyfriends wanna bitch. We can’t complain because we don’t wanna be annoying. We trust people, then they end up stabbing us in the back. We learn stuff the hard way. Every guy out there making a period joke, like are you for real? No, just because you’re being a little bitch and pissing me off doesn’t mean I’m on my period. Get over it. We get hurt multiple times, and keep running back to the same people. We love hard, and hurt hard. We care too much. We’re never understood. We go through so much trouble when you don’t even notice. We listen to songs till five in the morning and fall asleep to it just because it reminds us of you. We try so hard to impress you, while dealing with all that’s said about us. After everything, we sit our asses down on tumblr and reblog everything that reminds us of you. We spill our guts out to our best friends who’ve probably had enough of you. We go on facebook and we check your profile a million times, and go through all your pictures, even if we have seen them all before. We hear what people say about us, and sometimes we break inside. But no matter what, even after everything, we have to come out strong. We have to put a big smile on our faces and pretend like everything’s ok. We have to act nice towards the haters, even knowing everything that they said about us. We love even though we know we shouldn’t. And we wait for something that’ll never happen. But no matter what, we manage to act like everything’s fine, even though everything’s falling apart. That’s a day in a girl’s life. Imagine dealing with all that everyday. We’re so much more than what you think, so much more than what we seem."

Uh, did you read finish that, or you just skipped it?

well, i assume you skipped it.

no, no.

i dont blame you.

it's too long, too wordy.

just like some things that had to be said.

too long, too wordy.

too troublesome, too hard to phrase.

too messy, too whatever.

so, we ended up skipping it.

thinking, "it will be alright. i know it myself. that's enough."

well, dont blame yourself.

cus, i dont blame myself too.

but, dont skip this process too much.

maybe you wanna scroll up and read that.

nah, crazyeeee ah.

just kidding.

i'm just saying.

well, get that off your chest.

if really needed.

dont learn from thy blogger.

uh, bad.

phew.

i'm mentally tired.

well, physically?

uh huh, also.

buhbye, crapped too much today.

understood? well, good for you.

dont understand? well, good for you too.

misunderstood? well, aww. good for you too there.

why? idk, dont ask me.

bye earth. love ya.

Where shall I go? To the left where nothing's right,or to the right where nothing's left?

2010-12-07T04:31:00.000-08:00

*yawns*
i'm tired.
yes, i'm.

ever got that kind of feeling?

well, i always did.
HAHA!

what, what?
idk.

it's not your fault, maybe it's not my fault too.
it's just it.
i dont know why too.
"if it's meant to be, it will be."
i always believe in this.

kena cheated by nick today, again.
blardy shiate. :(
luckily jenny helped me.
work with him, oops, i mean her, was totally horrendous.
i dont want it again. pleaseeeee.
she even pinched me la, ugh.
and pushed alllll the blame to me when something is wrong.
how awesome uh?

okay, whatever.
i'm going to sleep liao.
tired ttm.

"How I wish falling in love has traffic lights too.
So that i would know if i should go for it, slow down, or just stop."
-Unknown

buh bye earth, im leaving for wonderland.

Let the words remain unsaid.

2010-12-06T02:38:00.000-08:00

i hate it when promises are made, and they are broken.
then at the first place, dont promise anything, dont give hope.
dont let the person look forward to anything.
or, let's just say, dont lemme look forward about you doing anything.
well, promises are made to be kept, not to be broken.
dont change the definition of promise please.

okay, maybe i'm just too sensitive.
Ugh.

ahhh.
i feel like singing.
sing all i want, sing for someone out there.
no matter who you are, where you come from.
silly i know,
but wait, the question is.
who wants to listen?
HAHAHHAHA!

如果要我放手才能獲得, 為何在我心中有捨不得?

看著你要走, 還裝著笑容.
掩飾的脆弱要撐多久?
如果現在開口, 如何挽留?
感情這條線, 註定只能這麼遠.

-感情線

我脆弱像泡沫碰泡沫被戳破
我陷落像漩渦的漩渦絞碎但活著
不斷在剝落有個我被吞沒

我脆弱像薄膜擠薄膜快壓破
自信過像蛋殼被輾過
我還能相信些什麼
當承諾和溫柔都被揮霍
剩我一個一個人執著又算什麼

那麼為什麼是我我真的脆弱
記憶丟石頭偷襲便逃走
為什麼我不覺得快樂也不覺得難過
為什麼而活愛又算什麼
好多假動作我們都寂寞

我脆弱像粉末吹粉末在散落
我愛過但寂寞更飽和
我還能相信些什麼
當承諾和溫柔都被揮霍
剩我一個一個人執著又算什麼

是否已錯過最好的下一個
那會不會你錯過我各自生活被放錯了角落
為何總是覺得有點不妥
不知道缺少了什麼
花自開又自落

-脆弱

你的笑像陽光般燦爛, 小心翼翼藏在我口袋.
在我脆弱時給了我溫暖, 誰也無法取代.
-真爱

所有的美好
留在没人到得了
试著把你慢慢遗忘
-好爱她好想他

你是月亮我是星星
陪你一起数心情
装上翅膀我要飞向你
爱的印记如此坚定
这是我们的甜蜜约定

-甜蜜约定

守在你身旁看你每一個笑臉
笑得那麼甜是他給了你誓言

不敢有埋怨都是我心甘情願
或許有一天我的愛你能看見

一天一點你漸漸走遠
我卻像空氣被忽略

只怪我的愛不夠勇敢
一直沉沒的作你的依賴
讓一切石沉大海
Baby now I need you by my side
過去的一切該怎麼放開
Without you I can't fell in love again
(I can't never fell in love)

Til the end of time
In a world so close to me
I'm just so in love
With a girl who's in my heart

Each and everyday
I wanna have you next to me
And I said to the world
I'll never let it end

明明知道直到有一天發現你不再有笑臉

-不夠勇敢

Haha, lovin' these lyrics.
:D

buh bye.
where's all your promises?

where the heart is.

2010-12-05T05:23:00.000-08:00

hello, aloha.

well, my legs reeeally hurt.
:'(

especially my feet, the sole part.
hurt like shit.
uh uh uh.

i heard river flows in you today.
someone was playing it in borders.
well well.
kinda got a shock when i heard it.
good shock/bad shock? Idk.

it reminded me of the promises.
those promises made that will never be fulfilled.
well, what can i do?
nothing else but nothing.

like what i said,
we'll become strangers one day.
so those promises made dont matter.
like how i dont matter to you.

wheh?

lalala.
idk what i'm typing earlier on.
forget/ignore what is say bah.

uhm, i dont want to give false hope cus i know i cant do it.
i dont want you to waste your time.
that's all.

bye.
ciao, to where the heart is.

uh-hem.

2010-12-04T07:40:00.000-08:00

hello hello.

well well, work is stressful.
lotsa stories, lotsa complains.

hmm.
a shoulder is needed here.
who's out for rent?

LOL.

uhm, i'm pretty tired after work.
i feel like giving up.
reeeeally tiring and stressful.
but it will seems like i'm a weakling.
and i dont like it.

uh, well.
i dont want to give you false hope.
it's just, uhm. idk.
i mean, i'm not as good as you think.
there's alot of (bad) things you dont know about me.
once you know it, aha.

sighs.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i hate nick.
she(he) is a asst manager or idk-whatsoever what.
she(he) is just pure irritating,
like shit.
ugh.

LOL.
i realised that wei ren is not wei ren.
it's wai ren. (slant person)
LOL!
sounds damn funny in chinese.
actually it's wairen, in chinese is wei ren(noble person).
LOL! isnt this funny?
HAHAHA!
i laughed for the longest time.
Paxson is soooo cute la!
teeheee. the way he talk and all.
really a kind sir.

that's all.
buh-bye earthlings.

p.s i hate to say this but...ugh. n 55!w !
p.s.s yes, i hate it. uh huh, i really hate it. maybe it's just hallucination.

there you are.

2010-12-03T05:38:00.000-08:00

hello earthlings out there!

LOL. Totally random.
Uhm, well.
Work was real tough.
Those who are not working, please appreciate what you are having now.
It's really difficult to earn money.
*KA-CHING! $.$*

teeheehawhaw.
uhm, guess what, i accidentally found out a blog.
(really unintentionally!)
i was rather shock, or maybe a lil touched by the blogger and post.
HAHA, shall not tell ya'll who is it.
shhhhh, secret!
heeee.

uhm, that's all?

should be bah.
oh oh!
CLASS CHALET WAS AWESOMEEEEEE!
*grins from ear to ear*
although i missed both the sunrise and sunset.
but, i will catch it someday.
confirm plus guarantee chopppp! :D

anyways, today's customers were reeeeally weird.
:(
wei ren reeeally made me laughed alot.
i was surprised he's the same age as us. (he's very tall!)
LOL!
his reaction made me and amos laughed for the longest time and we almost had cramps in our tummy. i almost cried! :') HAHAHAHA!

that's all.
buh-bye!

P.S I'm changing link real soon! :D

Oxidising agent,

2010-11-30T00:37:00.000-08:00

hello hello there! C:

wheeee!
do you like my new blogskin?
(nods head vigrously)
uh huh, uh huh.
i like it very much. hee.

well, i'm working now.
if you can find me.
whoaaaaa, claps to you manszxc!
cus, that place is reeeeally hard to find.
HAHAHA!

my legs are like... painful la.
duh.
but, good experience tho.
exposed to alot of people and things.
people there are friendly too!
:D

LALALALA.
sheesh. im bored.
i'm like like this song over and over again.
(snaps for the longest time)
teeheehawhaw.
uh huh, did you ask a question?
ah, what song?
LOL, 2am's I Did Wrong.
rather addictive tho, but i like!:D

change blog link?
hell yeah.
i'll change soon when i think of a new link.
tatas.

uhm, you (yes you).
uhhh, uhm.
i'm not worthy, that's all.
forget bah.

(and, i'm reading.)

:D
buhhhhh-bye!

p.s i wanna watch sunset tmr and sunrise thurs morn, who wanna join? :D
p.p.s oxidising agent, you wanna join? (smacks head)

I'd run a million miles just to hear you say my name, Baby.

2010-11-13T06:29:00.000-08:00

"Speechless"

Feels like I have always known you
And I swear I've dreamt about you
All those endless nights I was alone
It's like I've spent forever searching
Now I know that it was worth it
With you it feels like I am finally home

Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life

Cuz you leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
Can't help but surrender
My everything to you

I thought I could resist you
I thought that I was strong
Somehow you were different from what I've known
I didn't see you coming
You took me by surprise and
You stole my heart before I could say no

Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life

You leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
Oh no
My everything to you

You leave me speechless
(the way you smile, the way you touch my face)
You leave me breathless
(it's something that you do I can't explain)
I'd run a million miles just to hear you say my name,
Baby

You leave me speechless
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
My everything to you

I'm in love witht this song.

Lovin' it.

TEEVEEAXEQQQ!

2010-11-02T22:32:00.000-07:00

Bolero

Listen to 3:21-3:53. I swear this is my fave part.
Esp Changmin's 3:37-3:42.

This is the live version. SUPERB!:D:D

Mirotic

I like 2:18-2:39! Esp the 2:31-2:39 (Changmin's high note)

HAHA. I'm currently obessed with TVXQ!:D

I haven seen sucha talented boyband.
Not like anyother boyband in kpop.
they reeeeeally can sing and dance.
compose songs too. LOOL!
I'm mad!

Uhm, just finished history paper.
and, im super sad.
god, my A fly liaooooo.
:(

super sian sia.
ugh.

be back soon.
bye!

2010-10-29T06:04:00.000-07:00

像两首节拍不同的歌
却又同时被爱情合奏
旋律勉强着
愉快不能够假装快乐
你心中有宽阔的天空
但空气很稀薄

曾经等待因为会改变什么
你总会属于我
但是最后时间证明了
你只喜欢我

你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞

如果爱情是五线谱
我只希望用全音符
吟唱出爱上你
那完整的幸福

当你的心没有耳朵
即使我为你唱着歌
你也只看见我哭了

你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞

你说我是你最好的朋友
却不应该再拥抱着
你退缩你冷漠
于是我放开双手
不在乎我的心
会永远的寂寞

-好朋友

yes, we're friends.
bye.

For the longest time.

2010-10-23T09:21:00.000-07:00

well well.
it seems like i have been visiting this place alot huh?

blogging alot too.
should private my blog huh?
hmmm.

sighs.

uhm.

if someone was here now.
anyone, i mean anyone.

it would be nice.

"everytime it rains, i think of you.
and, it had been raining recently."

that's all.
dont distract me anymore.
yes, just stay where you are.
dont come any nearer.

bye.
i hate you.

不是不爱你。是没有勇气说出那三个字。

2010-10-21T05:00:00.000-07:00

well well.
only one word to explain what happen this morning.
(drumrolls!)
SCREWED.

LOL. Purrrrr-fect word to describe.

screw the damnit setter.
ohwell, okayyyyyyy.
i cannot blame the setter too righttttt.
hmph.

whatever.
pre-Os-jumpyness.
officially name of illness of what i'm having now.
major lol!

(enough of my craps rightt? LOL!)

(drifts away from blog...)

uhm, alright.

i think i'm falling again.
a trap.
a trap that i see, but i still keep on walking around the edge of it.

sometimes, i walk away from it.
thinking that i can do it.
that, that isnt true.
it's just an illusion.

uh huh.
blardy idiotic, i know.
but, i'm that useless uh.
i dont even know what i'm thinking.

sheeeeeesh.
what am i talking about?
ohgod.

(scratches forehead)

sighs.

this is reeeeally crazy.
uhm, what do i put this?
uhhh, not realistic. unreal(is there sucha word? i doubt so).

hmmmm.

okay.
if (you) ever get it.
pigs will flyyyyyyyyy.

fly high and far, far and high.
fly overrrrrrrr the beautiful, magnificent rainbowwwww.

wheee.

LOL.

okay, if you ever get me.
i think you are awesome.
pure awesomeness.
amazing, fabulous, fantastic, superb.

yayness.
that's all.
buh-bye.

tatas!

I am like a...

2010-10-19T05:24:00.000-07:00

hello there.
it's really amazing that you are reading this.
sitting there and reading this.
reeeeeeeally amazing.

okay. now.
i just feel like blogging now.
and this.

i realised.

I'm like a durian.
Hard on the outside, soft on the inside.
(although not smelly, LOL)

My character is like a volcano.
(a dormant one, erupt le very jialat. very viscous, can kill many people)

LOL!

wheeeee.
this is cool.

and, i really hate the POST-O-LEVELS-FEELING.
ugh.
reeeeeeally jumpy and _____
idk what's that word.
indescriable.

well, oh.
i'm really not that initiative.
i think only i get what i mean.

and, umm.
last friday is grad day.
well, last day of school.
might not see him again.
2.and.a.half.year.wasted.stupidly.

tragedy.
uh huh.
purrrrrrr-fect word.

that's all.

buh-bye.

trying to emphasize here.
you're reeeeeeally amazing.
reading this.
(a round of applause please)

thank you, there.
uh huh, you! :D

I run to you

2010-09-04T05:58:00.000-07:00

我回来了喔。
我现在的心情有点...呃
我的心情就象泰山一样，荡来荡去的。
时好时坏。我也不知道为什么。
现在想揍人，你要给我揍吗？
哈哈。不想吧？

昨天真的有够气的。
气到～～～
差点三字经就要全部吐出来了。
真的 "有够诚意" 的。
什么都没有喔。
真是有够 "感动" 的。
我差一点就 "哭" 出来了。
我不是小气，去计较那个礼物。我根本不稀罕好吗？
我在乎的是那个心意，连个狗屁都没有。
真的佩服到～～～甘拜下风。
算了，越想越生气。

今天，做了一点点的功课。
一点点啦。
嘻嘻。
吃了很多巧可力喔！
超好吃的！

好了，就到这边。不写了。
怎样，王吟允，读完了吗？
哈哈，恭喜你啦！

天天想你，天天问自己。
到什么时候才能告诉你？
天天想你，天天守住一颗心。
把我最后的爱留给你。

你会消失的吧？对，你会的。

2010-08-30T05:56:00.000-07:00

"Just friends" is just like "parallel lines".
We share so much in common - inclinations, components, fears - that we leave it at just that; extending, evolving, exceeding.
But never intersecting, never touching.

How true?
Very.

2010-08-29T07:20:00.000-07:00

月亮在你的眼睛
太阳在我心
现在我唱这首歌
ohh 只为你
想把所有烦恼都忘掉
做不做的到
你明白我心在燃烧
因为你因为你oh 为你
你心中的话
我全都想听
能不能相信
所有的梦里全都是你会不会停息
和你一起是否
不会再放弃
你的心里有没有秘密
我分不清不要在意
只想为想为你
写一首歌
写一首歌
都是你 ooh
月亮在你的眼睛
太阳在我心
现在我唱这首歌
oh 只为你
想把所有烦恼都忘掉
做不做的到
你明白我心在燃烧
因为你因为你
ooh 为你为你 ooh
oh, love's in the air it's everywhere
everyone can see everyone can feel
that love's in the air it doesn't matter where
everyone agrees love is all we need
when the moon falls in your eyes i know the sun has set
the fire still burns within me since the day we met
i know my heaven would be so complete you could make it real
i won't let this change go by i can see, i can feel you
when the moon falls in your eyes i know the sun has set
the fire still burns within me, within me
月亮在你的眼睛
太阳在我的心
现在我唱这首歌只为你

順子- 寫一首歌

没那么简单

2010-08-22T05:35:00.000-07:00

没那么简单
就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在看过了那么多的背叛
总是不安只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫

没那么简单
就能去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管

感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听
自己作决定

不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上关上了手机
舒服窝在沙发里

相爱没有那么容易
每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪
轰轰烈烈不如平静

幸福没有那么容易
才会特别让人着迷
什么都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心
所以最开心曾经

想念最伤心
但却最动心的记忆

--没那么简单黄小琥

2010-08-20T06:31:00.000-07:00

"Goodbyes are meant for lonely people in the rain. And wherever i go, it's pouring all the same."

" Cause even when i dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do. I'd still miss you baby and i don't wanna miss a thing."

Both written and taken by me.
Seriously like the quotes very much.
Handwriting ugly though.

More to come! :D

p.s Roses are red, violets are blue. I hate the fact that i like you.

please, please. not again. i dont want it to happen again.

你和他是不變的定律

2010-08-02T05:47:00.000-07:00

你就直接回頭吧她在等著你
不要怕我會哭泣早就在心底
想想你說過的話其實我們不虛假
那就好吧其實你對我不差

別對我食之無味棄之可惜
雖然你還有感覺但不是愛情
想想你說過的話其實我們不虛假
那就好了吧這些夠了呀

我們的愛情是秘密不能成立
就算我愛你也不能夠說明
他在你身邊逗你開心
我只不過讓你歇斯底里

你就讓我跟著你一起祕密
我們的事情說好不提起
讓我們都能夠清晰 你和他是不變的定律

別對我食之無味棄之可惜
雖然你還有感覺但不是愛情
想想你說過的話其實我們不虛假
那就好了吧這些夠了呀

我們的愛情是秘密不能成立
就算我愛你也不能夠說明
他在你身邊逗你開心
我只不過讓你歇斯底里

你就讓我跟著你一起祕密
我們的事情說好不提起
讓我們都能夠清晰 你和他是不變的定律

我們的愛情是秘密不能成立
就算我愛你也不能夠說明
他在你身邊逗你開心
我只不過讓你歇斯底里

就讓我跟著你一起祕密
我們的事情說好不提起
讓我們都能夠清晰 你和他是不變的定律

你和他是不變的定律

tell me

2010-07-30T05:13:00.000-07:00

hello there. yeah, i'm back for a lil while.
i guess ya'll are busy uh?
(nods head vigrously)
Lool!

uhhhh, my life have been packed.
with lessons, tuition, revision and lessons, tuition, revision and lessons, tuition, revision.

(drifted to fb)

HAHA.
okayokay.
i guess i wont be back until o levels.
yeah.

i'll work hard de.
for my future!

RACHEL ANG, GO FOR IT!

haha, (smacks head)

okay, i got to go.

you gotta tell me why.
cus i dont know why.
i'm not good at mind-reading or guessing.

bye!

I dont wanna miss a thing.

2010-07-29T05:29:00.000-07:00

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you baby
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God we're together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

I don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you baby
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I don't want to miss a thing

I don't want to miss one smile
I don't want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

for you, about me.

I've been living with a shadow overhead

2010-07-24T07:22:00.000-07:00

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

-Way Back Into Love

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I'd wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

Cuz I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you even see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside?
Would you even care?

- Dreaming of you

Sometimes, I wish you'd paymore attention to my favorite songs.
Because the lyrics sing words i'm too scared to say.

- Unknown

Inside I built a wall
So high around my heart, I thought I'd never fall
One touch, you brought it down
The bricks of my defenses scattered on the ground
And I swore to me I wasn't going to love again
The last time was the last time I'd let someone in

But you had me from hello
I felt love start to grow
The moment I looked into your eyes you won me
It was over from the start you completely stole my heart
And now you wont let go
I never even had a chance you know
You had me from hello

- Kenny Chesney, "You Had Me From Hello"

BACK FOR A LIL POST

2010-07-23T07:10:00.000-07:00

well, i'm back.
for a lil post.

i guess i'm pretty busy these few days.

Being funny doesn't mean u don't have any sense of seriousness at all.
Remember: "Humor is a kind of intellect that can only be possessed by some kind of a deep person."

i like this phrase ttm.
omgee.

HAHA!
bye there.
miss you!

2010-07-05T06:36:00.000-07:00

i am starting to feel the stress.

god, what am i doing right now?

i feel like crying.

If it's meant to be, it will be.

2010-07-04T06:12:00.000-07:00

If you love someone, let them go.
If they return, they were always yours.
If they dont, they never were.

he never loved you. so dont expect him to return, idiot.

Okay, i decided to blog in english again.
(for the sake of our dear esther)

HAHAS.

well,well.
i'm feeling extremely uncomfortable now.
my head is soooooooooooooooooo painful.

my right-side of the head to be specific.
feels like it's gonna spilt anytime.

:'(

and, and, and.
i'm damn puzzled by something.

MY SS TEXTBOOK AND NOTEBOOK ARE MISSING!~

ugh, can someone tell me where are theyyyyyy?
:/

thisis so saddening.
the textbook is new, the notebook is too.

hmmmm.
i'm puzzled.

okayyyy, went bugis today.
actually just went to change the school shoes at OG de.
but pass by bugis.
so went in and bought three pieces of clothes.
HAHA!

got a blazer for $10.
KOOOOL RIGHTTT?

Hee.

okay, my head is spinning.

that's all. bye!

我会忘了你的，相信我。

2010-07-03T02:16:00.000-07:00

现在的我
还是对爱充满疑惑
没对或错
还不想给什么承诺

保持沉默独自走过
空虚和寂寞它们陪伴着我
装作洒脱其实很懦弱
有太多的借口终究没有结果

谁让我感觉他最了解我
眼神交错话都不用说
就抱紧我让我感受他多爱我
谁让我感觉不需要再躲
过去心痛从此被淹没
就抱紧我让我感受
让我感受他多爱我
让我相信他是爱~爱我的

未来的我
一个人过也算不错
冰冷的手
插入口袋也算暖和

日出日落都差不多
若有谁陪我那一定更好过
天空为我一直闪烁着
用太多的借口我在拒绝什么

我又回来了喔。

今天，心情有一点不好哦。
不知道为什么。

你有在读吗？我真的很好奇。
有在读的话，跟我说一下吧。
我很想知道。

我，不会在这么频繁的用电脑了。

理由不用说，你应该很清楚。

喔，我真的很肥吧？（猛点头）
真的很烦。

算了，我也认了。
体重，不只是个数字。

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！

真的有够烦的。

我走了。

拜拜。

我该忘了你吧，对吧？

我讨厌下雨天，非常讨厌。

2010-07-02T07:45:00.000-07:00

嗨。
我又回来了。

吟允说她看不懂，叫我别用华文来写。
呃，不管她好不好？（好！）
哈哈。

今天，雨下得非常大。
非比寻常的大。
我不喜欢，非常的不喜欢。
喔，讨厌。

尤其那个叫雷的东西。
简直是要了我的命。
不懂为什么，就是很怕它。

啊，不管它了。

今天，很不顺。
做什么都不顺。
课本和笔记本不见，被老师骂。
等等。
Today is not my day.

大致上还好吧。

喂喂，你在吗？
别睡着了，我知道很无聊。
忍着点，快完了。

所以现在要写什么？
啊啊啊。我不知道呀。

好啦，就这样。

拜啦。

所以怎样？

2010-06-29T06:46:00.000-07:00

我确实说我这样说我不在乎结果
我对你说我有把握成功例子好多
人们虚假又造作总爱得不温不火
我们用真心就不会有差错
我没想过我会难过你竟然离开我

爱沿着拋物线
离幸福总降落得差一点
流着血心跳却不曾被心痛削消灭
真真切切

青春的拋物线
把未来始于相遇的地点
至高后才了解
世上月圆月缺只是错觉

我好想说我只想说
我不要这后果
可是你说相对来说
走开是种解脱
当初亲密的动作
变成当下的闪躲
感情的过程出了什么差错
我没想过我会难过
你终于离开我

我已经厌倦那种感受。
他爱她，但她却爱着另一个他。
她爱他，但他却爱着另一个她。
他爱她，却迟迟不敢告诉她。
她也爱着他，但，她又害怕再一次掉进那种可怕的陷阱，所以选择不爱他。

可能说这些都还早。
但，谁知道？

我已经搞不清楚也不肯定，那是友情。还是晚来的爱情。
谁可以告诉我？你吗？
连我都不肯定，何况是你了。

或许是我太悲观，但，这也不能怪我。
我已经不相信爱情这东西。
不是曾经体验，而是，太多让我感到失落的例子。
所以，我宁愿不去碰这个东西。

或许，过些日子吧。
我才可能选择相信这东西。

好了，就到这里。
下次在说。

喔，若你碰到他。
请帮我告诉他。
我想他。

拜。

It's okay.

2010-06-28T06:10:00.000-07:00

It's okay.
I give myself permission to feel, to cry, to hate, to want more than i should, to be angry, to be confused, to need a lot.
I give myself permission to grow, to have faith.
I can laugh at myself, i can be proud of myself, i can give myself permission to be lazy, to be gross, to need a lot.
I give myself permission to ignore, to create.
I give myself permission to scream and yell.
I give myself to not be perfect, to make lots of mistakes, to need a lot.
I am allowed to bite my nails, to have a cow, to be stubborn.
I am allowed to be sensitive and kind, to be ignorant and weird.
I can be direct and need a lot.
I give myself permission to carry a grudge, to be truthful.
I am allowed to be human, to not want or understand.
I give myself permission to dig deep, to be dumb, to need a lot.
I give myself permission to be aloof and cold.
I give myself permission to be distant and remote.

-May2010's post (extracted from a book)

can i say i love this so much?
it's like so me, HAHA!

okayyy, first day of school(reopen).
okay, how do i feel?
i feel very..not good.
i keep having the i-am-not-ready kinda feeling.
which is bad. really bad.

had, maths, physics, chinese.
and not forgetting geography.
i was scolded la.
:(

okay, got mooooooooody during recess.
ugh, moodswings, you call them.

blah, blah, blah.
had mac for lunch.
i saw this extremely cute baby!
it's a boyyyyy!~
he is mad adorable i swear.

then we were talking on how many kids we want.
erika and esther said two.
sylvia said four? or is it five?
idk, scary uh.

laughs like some crazyyy women.
and i was talking about being a nanny in the future.
where erika, esther and sylvia will put their babies with me while they got to work.
HAHA!
a bit far i know.
but, who cares!

okay,okay.
had geog apeee.
uhh, boring.

went back home.

that's all.

okayyy, that's all i guess.
yadayada.

tatas, tuts!

you always make me wonder.

2010-06-27T06:35:00.000-07:00

我落泪情绪零碎
你的世界一幕幕纷飞
门外的蔷薇带刺伤人的很直接
过去被翻阅结局满天的风雪
我不想写随手撕下这一页
-我落淚。情緒零碎

繁华声遁入空门折煞了世人
梦偏冷辗转一生情债又几本
如你默认生死枯等
枯等一圈又一圈的年轮

雨纷纷旧故里草木深
我听闻你始终一个人
斑驳的城门盘踞着老树根
石板上回荡的是再等
-煙花易冷

well, i dont know.

i'm kinda starting to listen to jay's song.
omgeeee.

HAHA!
school starts tmr.
well.

that's all.
byeee!

pigs might fly. should they?

2010-06-26T08:09:00.000-07:00

alright, i'm here.

after the hi chorale concert.
and, i'm tired.

so, this is gonna be a short post.

well, had lunch at macs.
was kinda in a rush.
miscalculated the time.
hmph. for the first time.

ate hurriedly.
rushed to school.
changed to the barney purple gown.

board the bus, headed to salvation army.
errrr, then had rehearsals.
blah, blah, blah.
put on make-up. making a huge fuss over it.
like some children playing with makeups like that.
heee, damn funny.

concert started.
our sec4 item was okay.
i heard from my cousins that i looked like a gangster.
HAHA!
okay, my intention was to look like a boy.
LOOOL!

ended the concert.
with lotsaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa screams.
my ear almost went deaf.
ugh, they just cant stop screaming.
although i was screaming too la.
but only for MS YEE!

ended the concert.
ugh, i lost ms yee's chocolate!
the merci chocolate!
*sobs*

okayyyy, went to j8 for dinner with erika, esther, sylvia, samuel and the tourguides anthony and kevin.
HAHA!
*grins at erika*

had long john silver.
ohoh, i was looking at the bear that i received.
HAHA!
it's damn cuteeeeee, i swear.

okay, walked out of ljs.

(the following para was requested)
i ps-ed anthony.
i didnt wait for him, my bad!
HAHA!
here it's, you requested for it!

okayyy, trained back home after that.
bathed.
and, and, and.
the eye-liner is difficult to come out.
and the mascara too!

god, i look like a panda now.
LOL!

okayokay,
that's all.

bye.

my homework is still not done yet.
*bangs head against wall and faints*

pigs might fly.
but, i dont know if they are ready yet.
they seems hesitant.
should they?

2010-06-25T06:51:00.000-07:00

hello hello.

well well.
tmr is the day.

i hope we can make it a success.
:D

may the force be with us.

that's all.
byeee!

天空灰得像哭过
离开你以后并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
守住我们的距离
一幕锥心的结局
像呼吸般无法呼吸
抽屉泛黄的日记
擦干了回忆
那笑容是傻气
你我的过去被顺时针地忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
粗心的眼泪是多余
我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待续

如果.爱

2010-06-24T06:41:00.000-07:00

每个人都想明白
谁是自己生命不该错过的真爱
特别在午夜醒来更是会感慨
心动埋怨还有不能释怀
都是因为你触碰了爱

如果这就是爱
再转身就该勇敢留下来
就算受伤就算流泪
都是生命里温柔灌溉
哦爱在回忆里总是那么明白
困惑的心流过的泪
还有数不清黑夜等待
如果这就是爱

如果你当时明白
后来的生命里是快乐还是悲哀
特别在夜深人静时想起未来
是否能平静不会想现在
只是因为你拥有了爱

- 如果.爱

愛點亮心裏　永遠不會熄
燃燒著真心情意　諾言已不必
這一生只要有你　什麼都願意
有歡笑　有哭泣　一切變成甜蜜
黑夜和晨曦　狂風和四季
我像溫暖的搖椅　永遠抱緊你
我的心從未曾猶豫
最真的愛全部獻給你

我和你相守相依　真愛生死不移
穿過悲和喜　跨過天和地
我和你永不分離
千千萬萬世紀　無邊無際
愛是永恆　因為愛是你

生命會停息　歲月會交替
只要和你在一起　什麼都放棄
我的愛　不滅的勇氣
生生世世　只願伴著你

- 愛是永恆

okayyy.
i'm kinda done here.
i'm all drained.
ugh, i've got blue-black on my leg.
okay, there is five of them.
very spectular.
the first time in my life.
and, and.
my left shoulder is killing me.
it's bloody pain.

am i dying?
HAHA.

okayyyy.

hope that this sat concert will be great.

god, please shower your love on us.
grant us the peace and wisdom to do what is right.
to bestowed on us, the ability to praise you in our voice.

that's all.
bye.

i'll be back.

I'm tired. Please gimme a break. Thanks.

2010-06-22T07:59:00.000-07:00

well, this is my 360th post.

okay, i'm feeling horrible now.
as in, my left shoulder is effing painful.
and i'm sooooo tired.

god, major moodswing.
yeah, it think it's coming
god, it's the wrong time.

okay.
i've got a lot to blog.
but, i'm not in the mood.

so, good for you.

that's all.
i'm aching all around.

Bye.

Could we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

2010-06-20T06:33:00.000-07:00

alright, alright.
i didnt go out of the house today.
not one step out of my lovely home.
heee.

woke up like at..errr.
i think i dont know what time.
11plus, i guess?
brushed up, watched teevee.
bathed.
ate bread and milk for lunch.
a goooooooood spread of peanut butter is what you need in the morning.
cool combination uh?
i'm lovin' it!
:D (inserts manyyyyyy smiley)

mom went to attend a wake in the morning.
some distant relative passed away i think.
umm.
mom and bro went to amk in the afternoon.

so, sylvia and i are the only souls in the house.
what did we do?
we watched teevee.

wait, wait, wait.
not only that.
we did homework!~
wheeeeeeeeeeeee-hoo.
\m/

alright, nothing to be proud of.
but, at least we did something.
whoo.

dad came back at around 5plus i guess.
he was rushing to the wake too.
sylvia and bro went to hg mall to buy back dinner.
ate and watched teevee, again.

oh, did you realised?
if you didnt.

I'M A TEEVEE KID.

and yeah.
i'm just in love with the teevee.
and i love the man who invented this machine.
cheerios to him!

RACHEL ANG ZI QING'S PERSONAL FACT #9
I just simply love the teevee.

yeah, yeah.
my fave invention.

RACHEL ANG ZI QING'S PERSONAL FACT #10
Chilli is my greatest enemy.

HAHA.
yeahyeah. i can defeat it.

alright,
wanna some piccas?
cus i'm too lazy to type le.
a picture say a thousand words.

tongues out!

like i say, i love chilli.

ey, ey, ey. how come they are taller than me?

and again. urgh, my tummy. -.-''

group photo! me likey!

darlinggggggg!<3

chilli!~

spaghetti.

HAHA! i look spastic!

my darling babies!

and again!

LOOOL! sunglasses craze!

the pink ribbon ring!

baby esther!

okayyyy, that's all.

bye bye!

there is lessons tmr, and choir.

uhhh.

i hope it would be okay.

byeeeeeeee!

I could really use a wish right now.
I'm praying that this stairway, leads somewhere like Heaven's door.
And when you get there, don't look down.

Very entertaining.

2010-06-19T05:07:00.000-07:00

Hello poops.

umm, nothing special happened today la.
hmmm.
woke up, washed up and went to school for meeting.
umm, practically.
i kinda did nothing.

sigh, major tsk.

went home around 12 noon.
oh, oh.
mr goh gave us something like a bag that he bought for japan.
he says that is for us to be environmentally friendly.

how cool?

went to buy lunch for mum and bro.
went home.
ate lunch.
bathed.

watched teevee.
all the way till now.

urgh.
have you ever been throught this before?

you tell yourself you are going to do something at this time.
but you ended up not doing it.
you think it's okay.
next day, you tell yourself you're gonna do it.
but you didnt again.

and it happens over and over and over again.

oh well.
alright.
that happened to me.

urgh.
i know, i know.
i know what is on your mind.

sighs.

i swear i'm gonna do it.
i swear.

AHHHHHHHHH.
Rachel, i hate the way you are right now.
just...
very irritating.

that's all.
bye.

You put on quite a show, really got me going.

2010-06-18T07:37:00.000-07:00

hello, hello.
i'm backkkk again.

umm, woke up like 6.45am today.
yeahhhh, it's quite early for a holiday.
but, no choice.
i've got an interview!

HAHA!
no, no, no.
i'm not going for the interview.
i'm going to interview people.
heee, a new experience uh?

reached school at 7.45am.
met mr shahrom and shirley in canteen at 7.50am.
went to ava room and get ready the tables and chairs.

started the interview.
umm, all i can say is.
some of them are realllyyyyyyy nervous.
like really.

they were like shaking their legs, scratching their hands, fiddling with their fingers, closing thier eyes(trying to think), rolling their eyes(trying to think too).

how interesting?
HAHA, veryyyyyy.

it is as if we are going to kill them.
well, we're not okay.
we're kind souls.
we're just merely trying to ask some questions.
:D

so, after all the rounds of interviewing.
we had a small lil meeting about the interview.
so yeah, got an rough gage on who is gonna be in.

errr, went home after that.
walked with shirley, since her block is just one away from mine.

reached home, ate bread for lunch!
heee, rested a while.
and started the collation for the survey forms.
oh, did i mention that sylvia just woke up that time?
HAHA, yeah.

she helped me a lil with the collation.
done with the collation.

then was sylvia's turn.
she have to do her own physics notes.
how cool.

alright.
watched teevee.
heh, i love my fave teevee show.
:D

then ate dinner, and ta-da.
i'm here.

oh, i'm veryyyy curious.
who is reading?
who?, who?, who?

yes, you.
i mean you.
dont try to ignore.
yes, you.

you're reading uh?
HAHAHAHA!

this is stupid.

umm, leave a tag bah, if you want.
give my (dead) lovely tagboard some life.
heee.

alrighty.
i gotta go soon.

still need to go school tmr, for meeting.
(smacks head)

sigh, alright.
i hope second uncle will get well soon!
:D

that's all.
buh-bye!

i'm happy

2010-06-17T06:54:00.000-07:00

HELLO GELLO!

the blogger is here yet again.
hmmm, idk who is reading.
like seriously.
i'm blogging to myself.
yay?

LOL!
ummm, woke up like 8.30am.
lazed in bed for the longest time.
theeeeee stewpit flu is still there.
ugh, my nose hurts like some shit.
seriously dont feel like getting up.
hmm, but my mom was like shouting at the top of her voice.
cus we have tuition at 9.30am.
wow, wow, wow.
i've tuition?
yes sir and madams, i have tuition.
poof!

okay, so i woke up.
went to brushed up and bathed too.
umm, then sat at the table to do a lil chinese since the teacher havent reach yet.
and, tuition teacher called to say that he will be late.
hmmm.
he will only reach at 11am.
so, we will have to wait.
continue to do my chinese.

around 11am, teacher reached.
(tuition in progess)
i dont think you want to know what is the contents right?
(nods head)

alright, end tuition at 1pm.
god, i have a lottttttttttttttttttttttttt of homework.
(smacks head and faints)

changed and went off to school.
umm, since we are already late.
sylvia and i decided to go return our library book and grab a snack.
i ate crab nuggets! i'm lovin' it! :D

walked to school.
reached music room.
(choir in progress)
some of the songs really sound veryyyyy good when we had rehearsals in the concourse.
me likeyyyy!<3

the sound is like, round and gooooood!
and i'm happy to see and hear that.
and, the sec 4&5s item is, errrr, okay.
not bad, can improve!
i'm confident it's gonna be good!
heehee!

walked out and waited for amos to take the money.
ahh, it's a loooong story.
i'm too lazy to explain.
can i not explain?
(yes, you can!)
:D

walked to macs.
found a place.
sat down, crapped and laughed like crazyyyy.
ohh, played heart attack too!
HAHA! long time since i played that.

umm, did i mention we didnt buy anything to eat?
HAHA!
we merely sat there.
bad thing to do, i know.
but, we didnt do that on purpose.
heh.

met up with parents and bro for family dinner @ KFC.
errr, it was enjoyable i guess.

went to pasar malam.
bought a spongebob squarepants mouse pad.
it's superrrrrr cuteeeee!
i'm using it now!

reached home.
called the nominees that are going for interview tmr.
hmmm, that means i've gotta go to school tmr.
bathed and watched teevee.

and ta-da.
i'm here.
i'm love with this song now.

"Take A Bow"

Oh, How about a round of applause, Yeah
A standing ovation
Oh, Yeah
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

Don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
You better hurry up
Before the sprinklers come on
Talking' bout'
Girl, I love you, you're the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on

Oh, And the award for
The best liar goes to you
For making me believe
That you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech, Oh

But it's over now

okayyyyy,
i bold some.
hehe, go guess why.
LOOOOL!

okok.
me gotta going.

i'm happy today.
great, fablous, fantastic!

bye!
love you!

finally.

2010-06-16T05:44:00.000-07:00

well, well.

i said i wasnt going to blog.
but, ugh.
who cares?

(sneezes for the longest time)

urgh, the flu bug caught me again.
and, i have been sneezing for the longest time.
(sneezes again)

okay, some people says that when you sneeze.
that means people are cursing you.
while some others says that, when you sneeze.
that means people are missing you.

so, are you missing me?
or are you cursing me?

LOOOOL.
silly question, for silly me.

anyways, i've got loads to blog today.
but let's start with that something that i havent been updating for quite a long time, i guess.

RACHEL ANG ZI QING'S PERSONAL FACT #7
I have a air bubble at the left side of my neck.

yeah, i have that since i was very young.
i tried to get it off. but it dont seems to work.
cus, it's still there.
LOOOOOL.
sometimes, i play with it too.
it's just a small lil air bubble.
:D
i'm special.

RACHEL ANG ZI QING'S PERSONAL FACT #8
I catch a flu easily, very easily.

i think the flu bugs like me very much.
so much that they look for me so frequently.
ugh, i tell you what.
i already take in so much vitamin c, by drinking lots of orange juice.
but, it still happens.
someone tell me how to stop this?
this is really irritating.

okayyyy,
so what happened yesterday?

umm,
lets see.

woke up like 7.30am in the morning.
it was raining.
(ugh, i still hate rainy day, although it is nice for sleeping. hee.)
went to bathe.
err, i washed my hair. early in the morning.
cus i still have got like plenty of time.
i wait till my hair got dry, by sitting in front of the freaking fan.
and, i woke up my sis.
umm, it's a hard job, as usual.

packed stuffs and went off.
we were the first ones to reach mac.
erika came after that shortly.
and amos and her sis?
wasnt late la.
we said we are going to meet at 9am.
all were early.
:D

ate mac breakfast. so filling la.
and laughed like some crazy woman.
cos amos and his sister was just too adorable.
the way they talked, the way they interact.
simply adorable.
ohh, and amos's itinerary.
soooooo cute! have picture somemore.

finish out breakfast, went to the big big bustop opposite hg interchange.
wait for godma there.
we keep on looking out for an orangey-red car.
HAHA!
yeah, that's the colour of the car!
(random!)

had somewhat a debate over where to go.
and, amos still insisted on going to the zoo although there is showers of blessing.
so, off we went.
yeah, to the zoo.
ugh, went we reached there.
we still cant believe that we were there already.
cus we are soooo not prepared.
(to smell the output of the lovely animals)
HAHA!

but we bought the tickets la, and went in.
godma bought this small lil booklet where angeline(amos sis) had to go to stations and fill in the info.
that means we have to walk the whole zoo.
which was a bad thing.
that means we will have to walk in the rain.
but luckily, the rain stopped when we stepped into the entrance.
wow, how magical.
yeah, i thought so too.
so we went around.
saw lotsaaaaaa animal.
whatever you name, i think i saw it.
cus, i walked the whole zoo!

had "lunch" at around 12plus @ ah meng koiptiam.
why inverted commas? cos we didnt eat anything.
only amos, angeline and ms goh ate.
erika, sylvia and me didnt eat, cus we were still too full.
and stupid amos was teasing me with the stupid chili.
ugh, i'm immune to it now.

after that, the four ladies(godma, erika,sylvia and me) didnt feel like walking anymore.
so, we intend to head to the exit.
but, the lil girl wanted to conplete the booklet and amos want to see more.
sigh, so being kind and nice.
we continued.

uhhhh, we saw baboons!
with bigggggg redddddddddd buttocks.
i swear it was brighttttt reddddd.
like some cushion for them la, when they sit down.
HAHA!
i was super amused.

errr, after angeline finishes the booklet.
(like finally)
we headed oout of the zoo.
but amos still want to see.
he says it's on the way.
so, yeah. we went to see la.
but now, angeline is too tired to walk.
and she didnt want to walk.
HAHA!

so, we persuaded her.
and yeah.
finally got outta the zoo.
had ben&jerry!
superrrrr duperrrrrr nice!~
finished the icecream and headed to northpoint mall.

we caught the 4.10pm show.
KARATE KID!~
damn nice, i swear.
but, gv sucks ttm.
their chair and aircon, CMI.

the movie ended at around 6plus.
and we started thinking about where to eat for dinner.
and we decided on swensens.
ummm, but the problem is.
we cant seems to find it.
HAHA!
it took us like quite some time to spot it.
it at a lil corner.
had dinner.
laughed like crazyyy again.
and was amazed by amos' hugeeeeee appetite.
and amos never-ending jokes.

headed home.
and angeline got this mask.
that scared the hell out of erika.
HAHA!
if erika post it on fb, you will see it.
camwhored a lil.
headed to the carpark.

dropped erika off first.
and angeline asked sylvia and me a question.
"why you three are triplets and stay different places one?"
we laughed out la.
she is soooooo cute.
cus earlier on in the morning, we told her that we were triplets.
and she really believed in us.
HAHA.
so we explained to her.

and she keeps asking for jokes.
on and on and on.
and never get sick of it.
HAHA.
little kids uhhh.

so, reached home.
bathed and watched teevee.
and i wasnt tired a bit.
so i watched CSI from 10pm to 12midnight.
umm, alone?

yeah, quite scary.
but, who cares?

went to sleep after that.

phewwwwww.

so yeah.
that's all.
it's a looooong post.
and you're done reading.

(claps)

LOOOOL.

okayyy, gotta go.
bye!

i need to stop, here.

2010-06-14T06:19:00.000-07:00

hello, hello.

am i suppose to kill myself?
(nods head like crazy)

rachel ang, i really think you should go and bang the wall.
like seriously.
you're an idiot.

come'on, your os are coming already.
do something about it.

okay, am i suppose to not blog?
someone tell me.

someone tell me that i should stay my freaking body away from this machine over here.
someone tell me to concentrate on studies please.
someone tell me that i'm an idiot.

i need motivation.
where can i buy them?

ugh, i need to finish my homework.
god, i really hate myself.

ahhhhhh, this shouldnt be happening.

hmm, i shall start by not blogging.
good idea?
(nods head like crazy again)

*smacks forehead*
ugh.
*faints*

i'm in a, umm, bad mood?

sighs.

tell me why i have been missing you.

2010-06-13T06:50:00.000-07:00

aloha, aloha!

hmmm.

woke up today at 9am.
prepared stuffs for wild wild wet.
went to bathed.
and, it's the first time i'm not excited going to wild wild wet.
tell me why?
i dont know too.
*puzzled*

okay, whatever.
kinda quarrelled with sylvia before getting out of house.
over trivial matters la.
ugh, it happens all the times.
so, i've already gotten used to it.

went to void deck to wait for godsis.
she is driving us there. so no need to walk.
(Y)
i'm lazzyyyyyy la.
reached downtown east at about 12noon?

godsis bought the tickets, entered www.
put our bags into the lockers.
valuables with sylvia.
she's not going into the water la.
so, yeah. poor her gotta sit alone and fiddle witht the iphone.

went into the water.
okayyy, wasnt to scared.
i have been there for at least five times i guess.
:D
went to play ULARLAR and SAMSUNG SLIDE-UP.
damn shiok la!
especially the latter.
i screamed like crazyyyyyy.
but it was funnnnnn!~

played for a lil while more at the tsumani pool.
there was this little girl that came along from my godsis side.
she is damn afraid of the water la.
so, she came o me.
cling on to me so tightly that i could hardly move.
sooooo cute la!

HAHA.
went to bathed after that.
da-dee-dum.
went to burgerking after that.
but i ate mac, heh!

errr, ate icecream too.
all the calories lost are gained back.
BOO!

said bye bye to all and godsis drove us back to hougang.

reached home.
took out all the wet clothes, soaked them.
watched teevee.
ate maggi mee, sweet corn for dinner.
fattening much.
ugh. who cares?
*grins*

and ta-da.
i'm hereeeeee.

am i going to school tmr?
errr, the answer is NOOOOO!~
i'm going to do my homework.
yes, i'm going to finish themmmmmmmm!~
LOLOL!

tell me why i miss you.
for me, myself.
i dont know the reason.

this is getting irritating.
i'm refering to rachel ang.

ugh, pardon me.

bye.
till next time.

2010-06-12T05:52:00.000-07:00

HELLO, HELLO.

i did a lil homework.
a lil.

LOL.

err, going wild wild wet tmr.
WHEEEE.

okay, gtg.

BYE!~

pigs dont fly.

2010-06-11T06:07:00.000-07:00

hello people on earth.

hmmm, i just found out that there are people out there reading.
people meaning numbers that can be counted in one hand.
HAHA!
just that i dont know.
i thought this is a dead blog.

well, what happened today?

err, woke up 10plus in the morning.
found out that sylvia is not in bed.
she is in the kitchen, using the lappy.
brushed up and drank a cup of milk.
sat in the kitchen and read the gossip girl book that i borrowed.
HAHA, not bad. quite interesting.
but changed and went to do a lil of chinese.

read until mommy and bro comes back with lunch.
went to bathe and continued doing the chinese.
ate 1/4 of the packet of char siew rice.
wasnt feeling hungry. idk why.

went out with mom to school.
waited for esther for a lil while.
walked to school.

(hears brother talking to himself, irritated.)

hmph.
went to choir.
blah, blah, blah.
attendance is still shitty as ever.
took the group photo.
and i look horrendous like usual.
LOL!

errrr, ended choir.
went to mac to snack a lil.
then, went home.

errr, yeah. watched teevee.
that's all.

kinda not in the mood to blog.
well, well.

pig dont fly.

urgh.
i'm distracted.
bye.

sing, with passion. not for the sake of it.

2010-06-10T06:43:00.000-07:00

rright.
i'm pissed now.
mad, literally.

seriously, if you dont want to sing.
then dont go to choir.
we dont need you here.
dont think we cant go on without you.
come'on la, you're not a child anymore.
dont think just for yourself, think about people around you.
think for the best for everyone.

dont just go to choir for the sake of going,
dont go for the sake of the attendance,
go to choir because you like singing.
go to choir because you love to sing with the people.

sing because you love singing.
sing because it is your passion.
sing with drive.

dont sing for the sake of it.
dont sing if you dont like singing at all.
dont sing if you feel burdened.

god, i really dont know what kids these days are thinking about.
they just dont treat things seriously.
they only think for themselves.

come'on la.
grow up.
if not for the sake of us, for the sake of yourself.

sec4s will be leaving soon le.
you all cant keep relying on us.

and, most importantly.
do not criticise ms yee.
i repeat.
you do not criticise her.
you dont have the right.
not even a bit of it.
get it into your mind.

hmph.

i'm sad.

bye.

我相信在这个世界上,一定会遇到,对的人出现.

2010-06-09T05:05:00.000-07:00

hohoho, rachel is here once again.
okayyyy.

today is a..boring day.
yeah, a veryyyy boringggg one.
so, the post is gonna be boring too.
hmmmmm.

woke up at 10.45am.
lazed in bed for a while.
then went to brush up.
after i brushed up, i took my towel and wanted to bathe le.
before i could even step intot he bathroom
then mom said :" later i cook porridge uh, eat le then go out."
i was like.
:O + :/
then i was like : errrr, wait till i come out then talk."
then, went i came out.
she was already cooking already.
i was like "hmph"
that's it. i cant do anything, but to eat at home.
i was suppose to meet esther and erika at hg mall for lunch.
but, oh well.
sms esther and told her about it.
ate my utmost speed and went down to void deck to meet esther.
walked to school.
esther lunched at kangkar mall.
cus, we (actually it was me) wamted to dine at an air-conditioned place.

da-dee-dum.
blah, blah, blah.
(fast-forward)

erika came after cutting her hair.
esther finished her food.
we went to hg mall.
went up to library to borrow some book.
okay, to be exact. two of them.
it's a gossip girl book.
so yeah, went down and esther passed tickets to anthony.
then we walked to school.

had choir,
sigh, attendance was bloody shitty again.
damn it pissed.
i dont know what to say.
okay, proceed to 2respect classroom.
the altos did the MHWGO's sectional while esther, erika and me.
slacked around.
esther and me was listening to music la.
" She's indecisive, she cant decides. She keeps on looking, from left to right."
(esther and i turned our head left and right together, then we laughed!)
MAJOR LOL!
Eenie Minee's lyrics.
so crazyyyyyyyy.

okayyy, then salanne decided to do warm-ups all of a sudden.
so we did, esther was laughing away, for who-knows-what.
warm-ups ended.
then we decided to vote for who we're gonna do for HICTS.
hmmm, so.
in the end.
we decided to do.....
(drumrolls!)
Love story& I'm yours.
yeah, we did the singing.
(like finally..after the long wait)
so, we did something.
okay, at least we did something la.
okay, happy for that.
ended choir at 3plus.

then went to photocopy english paper.
then said goodbye to erika.
walked home with esther.
reached void deck and said bye bye to esther.
pressed the button and lift opened.
walked in and pressed the third floor button.
door close, a few seconds passed.
reached, door opened, walked out.

sylvia opened the door with the house key.
sylvia went in, i went in.

watched a lil teevee.
read yesterday's newspaper.
went to bathed.
watched teevee.
had dinner.
then here am i.

poof.

well, well.
you might have noticed.
there is no trace of doing homework.
that means i haven start yet.
it's a bad omen.
a very bad one.
and, i need to go to school tmr.
for meeting with mr shahrom.
ahhhhhhh.

so, whatever.

(resting in progress)

ummm, alright.
that's all.
piccas are on fb already.
there is this song that really express my thoughts.

" 爱要耐心等待, 仔细寻找, 感觉很重要. 宁可空白了手, 等候一次, 真心的拥抱. 我相信在这个世界上
一定会遇到, 对的人出现."

戴愛玲對的人

okay, bye.

i love the time we spent together, baby.

2010-06-08T05:54:00.000-07:00

okayyyyy, i'm here.

ummm, woke up like 8.30am.
HAHA.
cus, i need to like wake up earlier to ask my mom for permission to go out with darlings.
wellll, i was suppose to wait for my mom to ask for permission yesterday night.
but you know, i laid on my bed.
wait, wait, wait.
and then, unconsciously.
i fell asleep.
soooo, yeah. HAHA!

so i decided to wake up earlier la.
hmph, but you know.
i'm not very good at asking for permission.
like really, i suck at that.
although sylvia was suppose to go with me and ask, but she is like toooooo difficult to be waken up.
so i just gave up.
and i went to ask myself.
so, i climbed onto my mom's bed.
and ask her la.

after all the da-dee-dum.
blah, blah, blah.
she agreed la.
but after i went back to bed, sylvia went to ask mom again.
she thought i failed asking.
so, i went back to bed and slept till 9am.

woke up and went to bathe.
dried my hair, and changed at 10.10am.
sylvia woke up at 10am and went to bathe.
blah, blah, blah.
went out of the house at 10.35am.
went to top-up my ezlink card la.
cus there were like not enough value inside.
tapped into the station and waited for esther to reached.
she said she will be late, so yeah.
waited for quite a while.
she came and we board the train that erika was in.

trained to harboutfront.
chatted and laughed throughout the ride.
and, we were like guessing something la.
"a guy or girl?"
cus there is this "woman" who look like a "man"
okay, "she" look like "she" is a "man" who is trying to be a "woman".
LOL!
i guessed "she" is a man la!
HAHA!

went to Bakerzin for lunch.
i had some hazelnut...poached egg and ham thingy.
it's spaghetti la.
HAHA!
it's damn nice, i swear.
i was the last one to finish la.
it was so nice, that i finish all, except of some of the cheese.
their cheese is special. it's a strip.
we had ice mango tea also.
erika and me shared the drink.

camwhored a lil and paid the bill.
HAHA!
there are lotsa piccas.
i think will be loaded to the fb.
i'll grab from there.

then we went to walk walk la.
went to mango, pull and bear, topshop, forever 21, diva...etc.
went to ben&jerry for ice-cream, we had some choco+brownie+...
idk, forgot le la.
roamed arnd vivo.
oh, we went to this pet shop.
there a few dogs inside.
theyyyyyy areeee soooo cuteeee!
HAHA!
but i'm scared of dog la.
so yeah,
but they are in cages.
so not that scared.

aiyerrrrr, too many things le la.
i kinda forgot what came first le.
oh ya! we went to Toys"R "us.
we had fun inside.
some spastic piccas were taken.
LOL!

errrrr. sylvia kinda misplaced her phone in ben&jerry too.
lucky the staff called mom and mom called me.
so sylvia went to retrieved it.
so blur la she.
urgh.

errrrr.
*scratches head*
what happened next?
errrr, i think we went to sit at the basement bench.
like for the longest time.
*laughs*

we kinda observed people who walked by,
and da-dee-dum.

trained back home with esther.
erika went to look for her mom, her mom was working at harbourfront there.
reached hougang and alighted.
walked home with esther, talk a lil at our void-deck.
went back home after that.

bathed, ate dinner and ta-da.
done.
hmmmm, i'm waiting for erika to upload the photos.

sighs.

how the hell can i forget you?
tell me how!!!

okayyy, gtg le.
bye!